Our Secret Dream 2

Morning Jitters ❤️👰🏼🤵💍

It's the morning of our big day and my stomach is doing summer salts. The ever so known pre-wedding jitters are an actual thing. I honestly thought that I wouldn't have them, especially when I'm not regretting or second guessing my decision to marry him. I guess the 'always on point perfectionist' within me is working overtime today. My brain skittering around from one thought to another.
Have I got the right nails. Did I pick the right hair style and makeup artist.

Every decision I've made before today I am now second guessing. Quinn has been a true one. Like an actual Queen. She's been trying her darn hardest to keep me calm. Preempting my overthinking, perfectionist brain before I've even had the chance to vocalise the concerns or doubts that I may have. For instance, earlier I was looking down at my nails, pondering over if I still loved them like I did when I went to the salon the other day. Quinn noticed from across the room. She walked over to me and handed me a glass of orange juice followed by scolding me 'Stop it. You know that you love them and they are perfect. Don't second guess yourself or your taste.' She told me in her stern mother hen voice. Making it very clear that I was being scolded. Whilst keeping a warm loving smile on her face. I know that if I didn't have her here with me this morning I would be a complete mess. Unable to think let alone breathe.

I haven't even mentioned that she had to steal my phone away from me earlier to prevent me from calling Bryan. Which for reference I think it cruel and I may have put a line against her name in our friendship book. Don't come for me okay, I know seeing and hearing from him isn't aloud on the day of the wedding but I missed him. The statement 'Tradition be Damned' was my new mantra for the day.

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A soft knock against the oak door to our suite breaks the crazy hustle of our room. Everyone and everything around us freezing in time. I turn my head to the side and see Addi looking over to me a smile on her face as she walks over to the door, opening it slightly before poking her head between the gap.
I'm not sure who it is but I can hear Addi and someone else whispering. Trying my best to ignore them I turn back to the mirror in-front of me, letting the makeup artist add the finishing touches to my face.

'Here you go, Sky. It's a note from Bryan' Addi whispers, holding out an envelope to me. Smiling I take the envelop and place it in my lap, looking over to Quinn for a moment.
'Why don't we give Sky some privacy to read that note' she tells everyone, giving me a quick wink before following everyone into the lounge. Closing the doors behind her.

With a deep breath I turn over the envelope, my breath catching as my fingers glide over his writing.

How did I find such a caring, loving man? Maybe I should have thought about doing something like this for him?  He really do be showing me up. I haven't even opened the damn letter yet and I can already feel my eyes starting to fill with tears.
With a shaky breath I turn over the envelope and open it. Letting my shaky fingers slip beneath the seal, slowly peaking it away, removing the letter from its envelope.