Put A Little Love On Me ~N.H~ *Completed*

Bonus Chapter 1 - Coming Home

Aliyah

The past few days have been rough.

For starters, I gave birth 2 days ago.

I've had to adjust to having a newborn in my life. I have to start adjusting to what my body is like now because I am no longer pregnant. That is something that has been hard for me.

I still look as if I could be pregnant. It still seems that I have a baby bump when I actually don't. This is something that had surprised me since I had her. I knew that my body wouldn't go back to how it was before I had given birth, but I guess I expected it to do something more drastic than it actually did. 

Another reason why the past few days have been rough is because of my emotions.

My emotions have been all over the place. I've cried over basically nothing at all. My emotions will be like this for the next few weeks as they try to regulate themselves. I just hope I don't get too crazy about them. 

Even though it has been rough all these days, I still wouldn't change any of it because of our new family member. She was definitely the light of our lives. 

Today we were finally in our own home. 

After being in the hospital for almost 3 days it was finally good to be back home. The only bad part about being home is that we don't have as much help as we did back in the hospital. 

When we were still in the hospital, we had all kinds of doctors and nurses checking up on us every 2 or 3 hours. Now, it was mainly just Niall and I doing everything for Aven. Well, except for our parents. 

Both of our parents decided that they were going to be staying to help us out for the next week. We are both very grateful that our parents want to help out with their new grandchild, but we also kind of wanted to be by ourselves.

We wanted to figure out everything on our own. We would've had to do it eventually, so why not start the day she came home. We didn't want to tell our parents about wanting to figure everything out on our own because we knew they wanted to help out. They wanted to help us with our new baby and spend time with her before they had to go back home. 

"I don't think I'm prepared for this," I said as I sat down slowly on the couch.

I wasn't healed very much, if at all. I have stitches in places I didn't think I could even get stitches.

"Whether or not you're prepared, you have to do this," my mom said sitting down next to me.

"I'm already so tired and we've been home for like an hour," I groaned.

"Why don't you get in some comfortable clothes and go rest for a while," she suggested. "We can all help out and watch Aven while you do that,"

"I really want to take a shower, I feel like I smell like the hospital," I said as I tried my best to get up off the couch.

"Go do whatever you need to do, we'll watch Aven for you," Maura said. "Niall, you're gonna need to help her," she said.

"C'mon," Niall nodded his head toward our room.

I followed close behind him as we walked to our room. Niall shut the door behind us after we were inside.

"Are you excited to finally be home?" He asked as he followed me into our closet.

"I am, but I'm nervous about not having all of the help from the doctors and nurses," I answered honestly.

"We'll be alright," he said. "What did you want to wear? I can get you some clothes once you're in the shower,"

"My doctor said I should wear something tight to try and compress everything," I spoke. "Just get me a tank top and some sweatpants," I said as I walked into the bathroom.

I opened the shower door and started it to get it warmed up. I turned around to see Niall standing in the doorway.

I was getting quite shy around him now. I didn't want him to see what my body looks like now.

"Why do you look so scared, baby?" He asked as he came closer.

"I don't want you to see how I look," I mumbled as I looked down.

"What do you mean?" He questioned as he lifted up my chin.

"My body doesn't look the way it did before I was pregnant," I said. "It's not how it normally was,"

"I don't care what your body looks like, Liyah," he said. "I don't expect it to go back suddenly. You just had a baby. Your body may not go back to how it was in a week, a month, or even a couple of months. You made a baby and you should be proud of your body for doing so,"

"I just don't like how I look," I sniffled. "I'm sorry for getting so emotional," I apologize.

"No need to apologize," he wiped away some stray tears. "Let's get you in the shower so we can see our little baby," he smiled.

"Thank you,"

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I took quite a long shower. I needed to wash off all the scents of the hospital. I got out of the shower with help from Niall and began getting dressed.

I put on my nursing bra, which I would be wearing for quite a few months. I put on a tight tank top over it as well. I slid on the uncomfortable-looking underwear that I also had to wear, putting some sweatpants over top of them. I went back into our closet and put a sweatshirt on as well. I wanted to hide my body as much as I could.

I brushed through my wet hair and threw it up in a messy bun and called it good. This would be my typical look from now on.

"I don't think I told you today yet, but I love you," Niall said.

"I love you too," I said leaning in to kiss him.

"Are you ready to go see our baby girl?" He smiled.

"Yes," I nodded. "I missed her,"

We left our room and headed into the living room where all of the noise was coming from. Everyone turned around when they heard Niall and me walking into the room.

I lightly smiled at them as I sat down on the couch again. My mom gently handed me, Aven, after I got situated.

"Has she been sleeping the whole time we were gone?" I asked.

"She has," my mom nodded.

I looked down at the small baby that was sleeping in my arms. I still can't believe that this is the human that lived inside of me for 9 months. Now she was out in the world with us.

I've never been in a happier stage in my life. I had Niall. I had my family. And now I had my baby girl. Life couldn't get any better.

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