wedding (M-preg)✔

82.Fourth month-I: Being supportive

The moment you accept responsibility for everything in your life is the moment you gain the power to change anything in your life...thinking all the way ming keeps staring to forth sleeping face it was early in the morning 4:30, he woke up and could not fall a sleep, he successfully passed his first trimester of three months and now he is in fourth month, last night forth informed him today its time for screening, and it was hard for ming to not keep thinking about baby condition, forth tried his best to pat his sweet heart coaxing him to sleep, but ming could not, knowing it's the day he keeps worrying and he woke up so early in the morning he pesters his gaze to forth sleeping face, he don't want to disturb the tired doctor and he love to stare to his husband who is being sleeping in so peace

Slowly tears dwelled in his eyes, he keeps praying this day should be over quick,, he don't want to sleep and he don't want to talk about it, he knew forth is being silent like him but deep inside they both are suffering the pain they both are overthinking, over analysed and upset and he is aware forth always trying to avoid every topic about baby, he never seen the same happiness which he experienced when forth was over joyed in learning about ming pregnancy and soon to be father he is happy to sky but now he cannot see the same happiness in forth eyes.

Yet right now, ming understand the sorrow behind forth smile and the love behind his anger, and the reason behind his silence, he understand what forth is feeling right now! He is struggling and worried about his two loves, they don't know what future holds for them, right now they both keep holding and trusting each other as if there is no tomorrow, ming is trying his best to gives reasons for his husband to believe him, he knew forth is worried about ming health and to not disturb and make him more tired forth is being silent.

Nevertheless, forth is hiding himself in a cocoon of ice to control his frustration and emotions every time ming can easily see them in forth eyes, but ming was calm and steady he replies with his eyes that everything is going to be okay! And forth never being forcing ming to make any serious decision yet he is still being worried

It was past half an hour which is already five in the early morning which is a usual time for forth to wake up to the sunrise to start his day, he already keep stirring in his sleep and hand searching for ming's waist

Looking down to forth arm searching for ming his lips broke into teary smile, he instantly nest into his husband chest and forth loops his arm around ming's waist,

Forth looks down to ming burying his face deep into his chest he palms ming back up and down gently asking "don't pretend like you're asleep,"

He looks up meeting forth eyes, which are looking down to him "can we just stay in bed for today?"

He gives him a gentle morning smile "I feel you, sweetheart" he says and kisses on top of head "are you tensed? Worried? You could not fall asleep, at what time did you wake up?"

Ming gets away from forth arms and sit leaning his back to bed post "half an hour," he says as he looks down to his small bulge of stomach which is still hiding under his tee shirt

Forth followed his sweetheart eyes and he sat up to ming shoulder and pulled by him closer by the opposite shoulder "do you want to drink milk, and spend some time in garden"

He gives sad eyes to forth and brings his husband hand on top of his stomach, "can I just close my eyes and wake up tomorrow?"

That sting forth eyes with immediate tears he sits up he keeps stroking ming's hair, either he don't have any words left to say or he just want to stay as a support, he leaves ming and get down the bed, he picks up silent ming into his arms, silence is the best moment they keep to each other he walks out to the garden and helps him sit on the couch "...I will get you a glass of milk, do you want to eat anything?"