Living With No Heartbeats (Living Series #1)

Chapter 12

Friends

I'm wearing white dress and black belt. I pick my black boots with three inches heels. I put minimal make up to make my face lighten. I get my black purse before I went out. I bring my car usually so I can drive myself without others help. I want to be an independent din kasi. I promise my self on my second year in college, I'll get my own condo unit and be independent.

I looked at my wrist watch, it's around 2:40pm which exactly 3:00am about to the said place. I don't want to be late and I don't want to be too early either. Tama lang ang oras ko pagkarating. I already estimated the time while I'm driving and the time when I exactly heading.

I removed my seatbelt and went out of my car. It's 30 minutes of driving before I arrive in the coffee shop. Though, kilala ko naman ang may-ari ng coffee shop na 'to and the people their is nice to me. I just can't help to feel nervous. Bakit kailangan ko pa kasing pakipagkita sa kanya. The side of my head telling me that, magiging awkward kami bukas pag nagkataon.

I let out a heavy breath before I go inside. I sight and pushed the door. My hands is already shaking. Tinago ko iyon sa likod ko with my purse. Damn, baka mamaya hindi na ako makapagsalita dahil pati bibig ko kay hindi ko na magawang maibuka.

"Good afternoon, ma'am!" agad na bumati ang magandang babae sa akin. Malapad ang kanyang mga ngiti. Probably she's working here. She looked presentable with her minimal make up. 'Yong iba kasi ay sobrang kapal ng make up. Naiirita ako kapag ganun, pero syempre hindi ko naman sinasabi. Mukha nila yon. I don't have the right to judge.

I nodded and gave her my sweetest smile. "Thank you."

I survey the whole coffee shop hanggang sa may nakita akong lalaking nakaupo sa pinakagilid na table. Noong una ay nagalinlangan akong pumunta baka kasi hindi naman talaga siya iyon. May libro kasing hawak at nakayuko at seryosong nagbabasa. But when he looked at me, our eyes meet. I knew he is. Siya iyon.

I suddenly feel nervous all of the sudden. Napako ang paa ko kong saan man ako nakatayo ngayon. Agad niyang isinarado ang libro at tumayo kaya dali dali akong naglakad kaya natalisod ako. Damn it.

I heard him cursed, naalarma naman ang mga workers sa loob kaya agad naman akong dinaluhan.

"Are you okay ma'am? We can go the hospital if you want. May masakit po ba sa inyo?" sunod-sunod na tanong nila sa akin. I don't want to be in the crowd. Ayaw ko sa maraming tao.

"No. I'm okey. You can continue." I said while looking at my dress. Inayos ko iyon. Agad ko namang hinanap ang purse ko dahil nabitawin ko iyon kanina. Bwesit talaga. Bakit ang malas ko naman.

"Are you sure, ma'am? Just inform us here if you have a problem ma'am." I just nodded.

"Uhmm...I just want to know, where's my purse. Nabitawan ko kanina, eh." I said very shy. Napakamot ako sa ulo ko kahit wala naman akong kuto. Bwesit na 'yan. Asan na kasi.

"We'll find your purse ma'am-"

"No need. Here's your purse, Kane." Langford suddenly interrupted. He handed me my purse at agad ko naman iyong kinuha.

"T-thanks." I said. Gusto ko na talagang magpakain sa lupa kanina pa. This is so fucking awkward. Ayaw na ayaw kong pinagtitinginan ako ng tao. I feel so shy.

"Naku ma'am! Andito lang pala sa boyfriend niyo. Maiwan ko na po kayo." the girl with brown hair said. Siguro ay naramdaman rin ang pakailang ko kaya sinenyasan niya isa isa ang mga workers na bumalik sa trabaho.

"Uhm... he's not my boyfriend-" he cut me off.

"Let's go to the table." he said. Nakasunod ako sa kanya. I can see his broad shoulders. He's wearing a white v-neck t-shirt and black jacket. He's wearing again his favorite necklace and pair of black jeans matched with his black sneakers. Damn, he looked hot. I just realized na pareho kami nang combination ng suot! We looked like a damn couple.

He back to the table at inilagay niya sa ilalim ang libro na binabasa niya kanina. I sit opposite to him without looking. Damn, the awkward moment is starting.

I was about to say something when he spoke. " What do you want?" he said staring at me. I looked at him and I can't read his eyes. Ganoon din siya. Tinitimbang niya ang emosyong nakikita niya galing sa mga mata ko. I put my purse on the table to broke the staring moment.

"I-I just want to talk about-" he cut me off.

"I mean, what do you want to order?" he said.

"Uhm...Just iced caramel macchiato and one slice of chocolate cake." I nervously said. Damn, nanginginig pa ako habang sinasabi ko iyon!

He nodded and walked to the counter. Medyo hindi marami ang tao ngayon sa coffee shop kaya mas panatag naman ako. I don't like crowded places kaya mas prefer ko talaga na pumunta na lang sa coffee shop minsan to study.

Nang makabalik siya ay dala-dala niya na ang in-order namin. I suddenly crave for this. Hindi ko namalayan na gutom pala ako. Hindi ko iyon naramdaman kanina. Though, kakakain ko lang noong umalis ako but kanina pa 'yon! He slide my order and inilagay niya rin sa table ang sa kanya. I was staring at him for a damn five seconds at napansin niya iyon.

"D-do you want my order? I can give it to you if you want. Just don't panicked and..." mukhang nagalinlangan pa siyang tapusin iyon."don't feel nervous." he said in a calmed tone.

I let out my heavy breath and nodded. I want to be civil to him. Ayaw ko ng may kaaway ako or iniiwasan. As much as I'm here, I can do this not perfectly but I will make sure it is the time to a deal. As I promise to make a change.

"I'm sorry." I said looking at him. I feel nervous all the time when I'm with him but now, killing my nervousness is good for this."Let's talk, now. I'm ready." I said in a solid voice.

He nodded. Napainom agad ako sa Iced caramel macchiato na in-order ko. Damn it.

"I just want to apologize again with my wrong doings. After what I did to you, you should've hate me. But then, I realized you're not that hard." he said looking at me. He sipped on his Americano.

Agad kong naalala na may dala siyang libro kanina. Is he studying here? I want to ask. But the side of my mind said no. Imbis na sagutin siya ay iba ang lumabas sa bunganga ko.

"Are you studying here?" I suddenly said. He stiffened for a second pero mukhang nakarecover siya kaagad sa tanong ko.

"Yes. Usually. Why?"

"Okey. I just asked. I saw you reading book, a while ago." I explained.

He nodded. "Do you... still mad at me?"

Agad akong nag iwas ng tingin. Only to save myself and to search the answer coming from my head is to sipped again on my drink. I cleared my throat before speaking.

"Not really. Siguro naging immature lang talaga ako. I find it serious, na joke lang para sayo. I also wanted to apologize what I said and for being rude to you. I hope you understand-"

"I'm the one who wants the apology, here. Don't blame yourself. If there's someone who can blame with, it's me and not you.Do you understand?" he said looking to my eyes. He's nice. I can see through his eyes that he was sincere to his words. I can feel it though.

"No. I also want to apologized. You're not the one to blame all of this shits. If I'm not become a childish this wasn't happening anymore." I explained to him. Sumandal ako sa upuan. Calming myself. I still fill nervous. Actually, it's a nerve rocking shits.

"Fine. But I want to apologized again. And, you didn't answer my question yet. Are you still mad at me? I know you do but can you rate it from 1-10?" he said like a kid wanting to have an ice cream.

"I already answered your question." I said cooly. "At first yes, but now that I've realized, it's now over. I forgive you. I hope you will do the same. To make you sure, I'll rate it as 1." I said.

He chuckled a bit hearing my rate."Okey, so, are we now... friends?" he said and his hands we're like to shake mine too.

Tinanggap ko iyon at agad naman siyang napangiti at ganoon din ako.

I smiled widely. "Friends."