Miss You More (A Joey McIntyre/Jordan Knight Fanfiction)

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When Joe gets home be finds Amber laying on their bed. She's either crying again or still crying. Joe's good mood plummets. "Hey babe what's the matter?" Joe goes to her and pulls her into his arms.

"She stole my little girls name!" Amber says through her sobs. Joe doesn't get her meaning.

"What do you mean sweetheart?"

Amber tries to calm herself. Having Joe's arms around her helps. "Sam stole my little girl's name. I wanted to name our first daughter after your mother. I wanted to be the one who gave you a daughter, but now she's getting to do both. And I can see myself losing you to her. You're affection for her has already changed just from finding out she carries the daughter you've wanted so badly. What happens when that little girl gets here? You won't have any time for the baby boy I'm carrying." She begins to sob again. "I don't want to lose you to them."

Joe's dumbstruck by what she's said. How could she ever believe he'd leave her for any other woman? There will never be anyone he loves like he loves Amber. Can't she feel how much he loves her? How much he needs her? Joe only went with Sam to her doctor's appointment because Amber told him to. He never would have gone on his own volition. He had no interest in being a part of Sam's life. Yes he would have been a good father to their child, but if Amber hadn't told him he needed to be better to her he wouldn't have. Now he's let her back into his life and he couldn't in good conscience stop being her friend again. Not when she's been nothing but nice to him and Amber since Amber chose to give her another chance.

"Oh babe, you'll never lose me to anyone. Ever. You are the only one for me. And our children will always be my number one priority. They will always come first. You told me to be friends with Sam. You told me I needed to treat her better. I was only doing what you told me too. Yes I'm excited about having a daughter, but I'd also like it to be you to give me a daughter. If I'm being honest I'd rather you be the only one to give me children. But we're past that wish now. I will love my daughter with Sam, but I still look forward to the day we, you and I, have a daughter of our own. I'm sorry about her name choice, but I can't very well tell her she can't use my mom's name. I'm begging you to see that I'm never going to leave you, no matter what. You are my life. You, Joey and little James Nathaniel are my life. Now and always."

Amber stops crying and looks at Joe. "James Nathaniel?"

"Yes. James Nathaniel McIntyre, after both of your fathers. I think it's got a nice ring to it. Don't you?"

Amber's overjoyed to hear him say this. She'd wanted to find a way to represent Jordan in her second son's name but wasn't sure Joe would be okay with that. They'd had such a tempestuous relationship since Amber and Joe had gotten together. Jordan's accepted it by now and he's even happy for them. And he loves his grandson. But any tiny bit of displeasure Amber feels at something Joe's done or said and Jordan's on his ass about it. He's so protective over Amber that he becomes very unforgiving towards Joe. So for him to give their son Jordan's middle name on his own, this is what she needed to hear to be reminded how much he loves her. "Oh Joseph, I love you so much. Thank you. This means so much to me."

"Amber I love you more than I think you realize sometimes. Your happiness is so important to me. And I know you think Jordan and my relationship has suffered because of you. But it hasn't. I love Jordan, he's been a best friend of mine for so long, nothing will ever change that. It's just been tested a little over the last few years. That's not your fault though. So I'm happy naming our son after him."

Amber feels a little better after their talk but she's still feeling at odds with Sam giving Joe something she can't. It's her hang up though. It's got nothing to do with Joe. She just has to keep reminding herself how much Joe loves her and their children. And that nothing will ever come between them. Amber's very happy when Joe changes the subject.

"So have you decided what song you're going to sing with me at Duets at Dusk?"

Amber hasn't even thought about it. But surely it should be easy for them to pick an amazing duet to sing. "No. I haven't really thought about it. What do you want us to sing?"

"So I was thinking Don't Know Much. I love that song and I think we'd sing the shit out of it."

Amber loves that song to and he knows that. She thinks it's the perfect song for them. "Yes! That's it. What a great choice."