Miss You More (A Joey McIntyre/Jordan Knight Fanfiction)

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Joe can't believe Andi called him in for this today. He has a hard time not letting her know how pissed he is once it's over. The only thing that keeps him from giving Andi a piece of his mind is the fact that Amber hasn't text him back and he's beyond worried. He starts to think the worst and blames himself, thinking she's hurt and it's all because he decided to make love to her this morning.

Jordan can see Joe's upset as he gets up to leave the meeting when it's finally over. "Hey Joe what's going on? Is everything okay?"

"I don't know. Amber isn't answering any of my texts and I'm starting to get worried. I just need to get back home and check on her."

Jordan follows Joe out. "I'm right behind you man."

Jordan follows Joe home just in case there is something wrong he's there to help.

Jordan's really glad he decided to go to, because when they get there Amber's gone. And so it little Joey. It's not just the two of them that's gone though, so is most of their clothes.

Joe's frantic, unsure what to think. He begins to go room to room double checking. It's very clear that Amber's gone and left in a hurry.

Jordan finds an envelope on the kitchen counter with Joe's name written on the front, in Amber's handwriting. He grabs it and runs into the master bedroom to give it to Joe. He finds him in their bathroom going through the drawers.

"It's all gone J."

"Joe she left this in the kitchen for you." Jordan hands him the letter and Joe takes it into the bedroom and sits on the bed as he opens it. He's feeling uneasy, this sense of de ja vue rushes over him.

"My dearest Joseph,

I'm so sorry. I know how you must be feeling right now. But let me promise you this isn't like last time. Yes I'm gone, but not gone forever. I will be back. I just needed to remove myself from our situation before it killed me or our baby.

Sharing you with Sam has proven to be more than I can handle at this point in my pregnancy. It was no longer an option for me anymore. But I couldn't ask you to choose between us because I know with every fiber of my being you'd have chosen me.

Sam has no one, just you. I've got tons of other people taking care of me. She needs you more than I do right now. So for now I'm letting her have you. I'm removing myself from this situation to save myself and the little one inside me. Please try to understand. I'm doing this for us. You'll understand one day. I'm doing this because I love you.

You take care of Sam and your daughter now. Don't worry about me, I'll be fine. And I promise you'll get a call when James Nathaniel decides he's ready to join the world.

I love you so much. Please don't worry about me. And please don't try to find me. Be there for Sam and make sure she's healthy and happy. I'll see you when we get past this awkward situation. I promise.

Love you with all my heart,
Amber"

Joe hands the letter to Jordan. "She's gone. Again. She's left me J. But this time she's taken my son with her."

Jordan reads the letter and he immediately thinks about the conversation he had with Amber at the hospital. Guilt rushes over him. "Oh Joe I'm so sorry. I never thought she'd do this."

Joe looks up at Jordan. "What the hell do you mean?" He stands up and walks towards Jordan.

"I just told her how worried I was about this situation with Sam. Stress isn't good for Amber and the baby. I didn't think she'd leave. I thought she'd..."

"You thought she'd what? You thought she'd tell me to abandon my daughter? You thought she'd tell me to walk away from Sam? Jesus Jordan do you even know your daughter at all? You knew deep down she'd never be so selfish. I think this is what you wanted all along. You've wanted us apart ever since you found out she was your daughter. You've always been a selfish son of a bitch and now you've finally gotten what you want."

Jordan's shocked by what Joe's saying. He'd come to terms with Joe being with Amber. He accepted it a long time ago and he was happy for them. He never wanted her to leave him. He just wanted Amber to be safe and healthy.

"Joe you can't really believe this is what I wanted. Your one of my best friends and you make my daughter happy. I'm happy for you both. I love that you two are together and you make each other so happy. You're meant to be together. I'd never try to come between you guys. I love you both. Let me help you. We'll find her and bring her home."

Joe rolls his eyes. "Did you not read the letter? She doesn't want me to find her. If I go against her wishes and push her she may never come back. I'm really starting to see what a shitty father you are. You left the boys for your much, much younger piece of ass. And you knocked up Sara and then never spoke to her again. I don't think I need to take any advice from you about my wife and kids. You've done enough anyway. Show yourself out Jordan. I can't even stand being near you right now."