Miss You More (A Joey McIntyre/Jordan Knight Fanfiction)

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Time seems to fly by and before she knows it there's only one more day until Joey's party. Which means only one day until she gets to hear her finished album.

Unfortunately that also means a photo shoot. She's just not feeling up to getting dolled up to have photos taken. She's tired and already road worn. It's tough being in a new place everyday. Taking care of an active toddler while on the road is not for sissies. Joe helps as much as he can, but he's got to get his rest between shows. So mornings and afternoons are all Amber. She gets help from Danny's girls too, but she doesn't want to intrude on their time so much.

Amber lays Joey down for his nap and run in to take a quick shower. Amber goes to grab some more soap from under the sink. When she grabs the soap she sees her unopened box of tampons, this makes her stop what she's doing immediately. She should have opened that box by now. She bought that box before they started the tour. She's pretty sure she should have opened it by now. She tries to remember when her last period was. She remembers having one right before the marathon, that was in April. It's June now. She can't remember when she had it in May. She's sure she did though. It would've been before the tour. Amber heads out to the living room and grabs her phone. She looks at her calendar and realizes she couldn't have had a period in May. She would remember it, because it was due the day they left for the tour. She would have used the tampons in the unopened box in the bathroom. Holy shit, could I be? Amber thinks about it. Her last period was right before the marathon,  she missed her May period, and hasn't had one in June. Amber knows she's pregnant, she's never late, she's always right on time.

Amber sends Andi a text.

Amber: Andi I need you to find me a pregnancy test. And don't say a fucking word to ANYONE!!!

Andi: Seriously? Okay I'm on it and my fucking lips are sealed, tighter than your legs obviously were.

Amber: Oh hahaha aren't you funny. You should do stand up.

Andi: I really should. I'm fucking hilarious! So is this a good thing? Or will I be making an appointment to get rid of Bradley's love child?

Amber: Now that's not funny at all. It's a very good thing. And it's Joe's you b. Just get me a damn stick to pee on. And remember DON'T TELL ANYONE!!!

Andi: Okay! Damn bossy. I'll have it to you as soon as we stop in Baltimore. Love you!!

Amber: Love you too!!

Amber is shocked she's already pregnant. She knows she and Joe talked about it, but she really thought it would be a while. She knows babies are always a blessing but she kind of would have liked to have a little more time with the little family she has.

Amber puts her phone away and heads back to take her shower. As she washes over her still flat stomach she thinks about what it'll be like this time around. Her last pregnancy hadn't been that great at the end. Then having post pardum on top of it. She begins to worry. Maybe she should have waited. Talked to her doctor first. What if it's worse this time? What if she really does hurt herself or this baby? What if she loses everything she's worked so hard to get back? She's so unsure about this now. She tells herself it will be different this time. She knows what to look for now. Plus she tells herself it's not even for sure she's pregnant. She'll wait to worry until she has something to worry about.

Joe comes into the bathroom and gets into the shower with Amber. Feeling his hands glide over her wet skin makes all her worries fade away. His wraps his arms around her and pulls her back against his very hard front. A little gasp escapes her lips. "Good morning beautiful!!" Joe says as he kisses the back of her neck. Shivers run up her spine. "It's afternoon handsome." He laughs against her bare back. She shivers. Joe's hands begin to wander over her front. He gently squeezes her breasts. His hands begin to slide down, she's anticipating feeling his touch between her legs, but it never comes. His hands linger on her stomach as he kisses her between her should blades. Amber knows it's impossible, but it's almost like he knows. Amber turns to face him, his hands are now at the top of her ass, much better she thinks. Amber kisses him lightly on the lips. When she begins to pull away he dramatically pulls her close and kisses her. It's one of those breathtaking, knee weakening, kinds of kisses. He takes her breath away.

Just as Amber catches her breath she hears a little knock on the door. "Mommy? Daddy? I need to go." Amber hops out of the shower and wraps a towel around herself. She opens the door and let's him in with a pat on the head. "Here ya go son. Did you have a good nap?"

Joey looks up at his mom and smiles. "Yes mommy. Can I have a snack please?"

"Yes you can. As soon as I get dressed. You want coffee Joe? Or some hot tea with a little lemon and honey?"

"Tea. Thanks babe. You always knows what I need. That's why I love you so much!!"

As soon as Joe leaves to get ready for the show Amber hears a knock on her door. It's Andi. "I got what you asked for."

"Come in and hurry. I've got to pee so bad. Give me that and watch the kid while I go take this stupid test."

Amber comes back a couple minutes later. "Well?" Andi asks her. Amber just rolls her eyes.  "It takes like five minutes. I'll go look when it's time." Andi notices Amber's hands are shaking. "Hey sis, are you okay? You look really nervous. What's going on?"

Amber takes a deep breath. "Andi this stays between us, okay? I'm scared. I mean it, I'm really scared. What if this time I'm worse than before? What if I don't leave this time and I end up hurting this baby? What if I go totally batshit crazy? Joe and I talked about getting pregnant this time. This is what we want, both of us, this time. Now I'm terrified I'm going to get sick again. Joe won't forgive me if something bad happens." Amber begins to sob and her best friend embraces her. "Amber we won't let that happen. We know what to watch for and we know what to listen for this time. You're not in this alone. Another baby is a true blessing. Don't worry about what ifs. Be happy with what is. Now go, check the test."

Amber goes back into the bathroom.  She picks up the test and looks at it. Positive.

All her anxiety melts away and is replaced with joy. Andi's right, she's not alone and she won't ever be again.