sometimes
i find it hard to wake up
let alone get out of bed
or walk to another room
or make myself breakfast
its often difficult for me
to complete basic human functions
due to my extreme levels
of clinical depression
which by the way
i cannot control
so please stop telling me
to "cheer up"
and to just
"be positive"
as if i hadn't thought of that before
as if i havent tried my hardest
to be happy
as if i could actually ignore
my mental illnesses
