CHOOSE ME ✔️

CAN'T HELP MYSELF

CHAPTER TWELVE: CAN'T HELP MYSELF

" can't keep my hands to myself "

Yael should have known that he shouldn't have said those words, he shouldn't have asked her such a question, then maybe he wouldn't be in so much pain right now.

"Do you want me to look for someone else, Yael?"

His heart began to beat really fast and his eyes widened in surprise. God, he knew the answer. He knew what he should answer that question a long time ago but no matter what happens his heart always tries to stop him from telling her.

Because his heart is telling him a completely different answer, and it's driving him crazy. It felt right, it really did. But he wasn't sure if this is the right time to finally say it.

"Hindi ko alam, Yael. Hindi ko alam kung bakit ikaw, siguro... siguro nung una kitang nakita, siguro nung nakita ko yung ngiti mo... o yung mga mata mo, I don't know. I didn't care either, because it didn't matter, what matters is that I'm still into you and I'm doing my best to make you fall for me, for you to choose me..."

It broke him. His heart was pumping fast a minute ago but now it's pumping for a different reason, he wanted to replace that heartbroken expression of hers. He hates this, this version of Diana.

And then she continued and he listened.

"From the very beginning... you could call it love-at-first-sight, but I fell for you even harder when I finally met you through Ryland. I'm a bit of a demi-romantic, pero... you made me change my mind and instead want you even more. It's hard to explain kung paano kita nagustuhan agad but I believe na kapag may gusto ka sa isang tao, it's truly hard to find the reasons why..."

A reason. Few reasons. Even she doesn't know how she fell for him, he wondered, why him? Why not someone else? As much as he believes that she deserves better... everything changed now.

He now doesn't want to imagine Diana with another man--and that is what is driving him crazy.

"But again, you changed my mind and I began to pick up the pieces of every single thing I love about you. Your eyes, your smile... alam mo ba na mas maliwanag ka pa kaysa sa araw? God, you were... so fucking beautiful when I watched your smile, you were... the most beautiful and most gorgeous being I've ever laid my eyes on."

Beautiful. He had heard this from Diana a few times and yet every time she says it over and over again, it only led her to his heart. And he knew that Diana is good at making him feel something so good, so fucking good. Something good that he had never felt before--not even with Sophia.

"What I'm saying is... I didn't choose you, Yael."

He took a deep breath, preparing for his heart to take off.

"...my heart did, and it is the best decision my heart has ever made, ever."

And just like that, his heart took off without any chance for him to even breathe.

Shit, Diana. Just shit.

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"College Iced coffee? College textbooks? College friend--"

"Okay na, tahimik ka na. Kanina ka pa, baka kung ano pang pagisipan nang mga tao dito, Diana." bulong ni Ryland habang nakatakip ang bunganga ko gamit ang kamay niya.