Love Me Jeong {Jeon Jungkook Fanfiction}

(15)

"Can you hurry? He is ready to leave."

Taehyung speaks on the phone while trying to stop Jungkook from leaving Daegu.

"Jungkook, can you stop?"

"Why? Everything is over. She wants to kick me out of her life, okay! I will help her."

I hear the heated conversation as Hyunjae drives me to Jungkook's hotel.

"Jungkook, stop. She doesn't. Just stop packing."

"No! I will move on. Fuck off, Taehyung."

"Yeah? And how are you gonna do it? Locking yourself in the room. How will you forget Ray?"

"I will not lock myself in the room. I will be the old Jungkook, and I will remember her as someone I fucked for months. And forget her like others. She is no more in my life. She has left me, and I will just remember her as others."

"Dude-"

Suddenly, the call declines. My soul loses her hopes as well. "I fucked up."

"Oh, you realize that now?" Hyunjae says sarcastically before stopping the car in front of the hotel. "We are here," I quickly walk out of the car just to stop at the entrance.

I will remember Ray as someone I fucked for months.

"What are you waiting for?" I look at Hyunjae. Maybe I have a chance? "Ray?"

"I am scared. I don't have the strength to face Jungkook."

"Ray, you have two options. One, go in and talk to Jungkook. Two, go home and cry for it for months. If you chose option two, then fine, I will start the engine again," Hyunjae walks to the car, but I run inside to talk to Jungkook. He came so far to make up for his mistake. I can at least walk to his room to make up for mine.

I ring the bell out of his room. Taehyung opens the door with an exhausted expression. "Thank god," He pulls me in. "All the best. I wanna hear good news, please. I have had enough of this drama," He walks out, leaving me alone with Jungkook.

"What are you doing here?" I jolt as I hear Jungkook's harsh voice. "Wasn't what you did enough to break me? Did you forget to tell me how much you hate me? After you lied to me yesterday by saying I love you. Or are you gonna tell me you are the player here?" Jungkook uses harsh speech, making me feel unmotivated. "If you want to say nothing, then you can get out."

"Jeon, can we talk?" I softly speak.

"We have more to talk about?" He sarcastically says as he packs his bag. "I don't think so, but go on. Hurt me more, I allow you. Anyway, it will help me to move on."

"Jeon, please," I raise my voice out of frustration because of his behavior.

"What?" He screams back as he aggressively throws his t-shirt in the suitcase. "What, Ray? You said move on, and that's what I am doing. Just stop, okay? Stop giving me hope and then break me every time. You have already broken me three times, and I am not ready to break one more time," My eyes widen as I listen to me. "Yes, three fucking times. Wanna hear it? First, our breakup. Do you ever get curious as to what that was all about? No, because you didn't give two fucks about it. Second, when you came to see me on the ground but acted cold when I came here. Why did you even bother to look at me in the ground? I thought to maybe that you were worried about me. But I was a big idiot. Third, you became the bigger jerk when you said you loved me yesterday and today. Why did you even bother to be equal? Why did you kiss me? Why did you let me make love to you if you didn't feel anything? Why are you making fun of me? If you don't love me, then say it. Why are you playing with me? Just why?" His voice became weaker and weaker as he finished. "I love you. Is it really that hard to love me back? Do you hate me this much that you break me like this? You ask me what you did to deserve that... Tell me what I did to deserve to face this much? All I ever did was love you unconditionally and protect you from everything," I look down while sniffing.

I didn't dare to cut him off at all. I just let him speak. "I am sorry."

"As if that word can fix us now. I have tried it, nothing happens. Please leave now," Jungkook turns around, facing back at me, giving me cold shoulders. I can feel his pain now. I can feel all the pain he went through to have me back.

"Jeon."

"Oh god," He turns to me. "You are so annoying! Just get the fuck out, can you?" I shiver in fear as I hear his scream. I am sensitive to screaming and fighting. Only god knows how much I am holding onto right now. My vulnerability is at its peak.

I look at him again. "Jeon," Before he could say anything, I started again. "Please forgive me," I join my hands, begging for forgiveness. "I am sorry, I try to do that while thinking about everyone except us," My body feels the goosebumps as I mention us. "I agree you love me unconditionally. I agree you try to protect me. I agree you don't deserve all of this. I agree that I am the jerk here. I agree with everything to say, but I don't agree with the fact that I don't love you. The only person who is my one is you. The only person who has my heart is you. Please forgive me."

I fall on my knees in front of me, looking at him only. His face softens, and his eyes widen a little. I bow like a sinner who wants forgiveness. Jungkook quickly gets on his knees in front of me, pulling me towards him. "What are you doing?" He softly speaks. I pull him closer to hug him. I just couldn't tolerate the space between us and the void in me. Jungkook caresses my back as I cry on his shoulder. "Ray, don't be like this. It makes me weak," My grip tightens as I don't want to leave him at all. "Ray," He tries to pull away, but I shake my head, not letting him go.

"No, Jungkook, not this time. I don't want you to go. Please don't leave me. Please, I am begging you. I am sorry, Jungkook," Jungkook nods and softly moves back. "I am Sorry. I won't do something like this ever again. I love you. I never lied about this to you," I hold his cheeks with my shaking hands. "I am willing to do anything you want. I am ready for anything. Just tell me. Just-" Jungkook kisses me and cuts me off from my breathless begging. I kiss him back, filling all the void in my chest.

Jungkook pulls me on his lap and kisses me softly like always. He moves back and looks into my eyes. "Stop crying," I cry more as he says it. I bury my head on the crook of his neck. "Ray, calm down," My tears don't stop at all, even after him caressing my hair. "Ray, shush now," Jungkook sits against the bed with me on his lap. My mind starts to calm down, and soon I stop crying. Jungkook pushes me a little to see my face.

"Jungkook... I am sorry," I sniff. Jungkook wipes my cheek to remove the tears before it stains my cheeks. "I will do anything," I whisper, trying my best till the very last.

"Shush now," I obey him. "Your face is so red," He caresses my face with his fingers across my puff eyes and red cheeks. "Don't cry now. It hurts me," I nod, still obeying him as much as possible. "I forgive you. I would always forgive you because I can't live without you. You are my life. How can I live without it?" I sniff as my heart calms down completely. "I know, Ray, you love me. I agree with you. You love me because you gave me the thing you didn't give to anything. Well, two things. Heart and the permission to mark you mine. Believe me, I also gave you things I didn't give to anyone. My heart, my love, my first girlfriend tag, also my first kiss," I look at Jungkook with an amused expression. There is no way he never kissed before me. "Before you, kissing was never the part of sex or anything for me. I thought kissing was more intense than sex, and it is. I willingly gave you my first kiss because I found myself falling for you while I was chasing you. I found myself happy around you. I didn't feel any fun while doing stuff I used to, but I felt fun while teasing you," Jungkook chuckles as he holds my face softly, drowning as deep as he could in my eyes.

"I know we didn't love each other back then, but when I touched anyone, I felt like I was cheating on you."

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