Dawsey: Starting a Family Part 3

Chapter 294

"But Jay, when does protecting me start to become lying to me?"

Jay's POV: When Erin asked me that question...I sighed because I knew there was a real possibility that Erin would see me not telling her the entire story as me lying to her. And that was never my intention....I am protecting her from having to have the same dreams as me. She doesn't understand PTSD yet and I am trying my best to help her understand but, it's hard. It's hard for us veterans to both deal with it while protecting the ones we love. I mean, she's my wife and the woman I love with my entire heart.

"Erin, I get you don't understand this...but it's really complicated. You are my wife but, you are also a civilian. There are things with clearances and stuff we've already spoken about. Erin, you know it is never my intention to lie to you but...with this you need to give me a pass to protect you. Anyways, you don't want to know all the details...trust me when I say that. Heck, I don't even want to remember all the details the memories are so horrible. Erin, this is good. You comforting me is all I need to get through it."

Going to rub her back, I just think about how to explain this to her. "Babe, remember when you were working at the FBI and how there was stuff the Hank wasn't able to see?" Erin nodded when I said that. "Yeah." I nodded. "It's like that. You were trying to protect him and I am doing the same. But for you, I am trying to protect you from the details because they are hard to even believe that people can be this cruel. It's not a pretty sight over there. It's a mess and scary."

Erin sighed when I said that because she knew that I wasn't going to budge. "Erin, I don't want to expose you to all of this because it's hard enough for me to have to remember it. I love you too much to have to make you think about it. It's why I have Champ." Erin then took a breath and I hoped that would let her drop it but I knew my wife too well to know it was going to be that easy. "Erin, can we please not argue on our wedding night of all nights? Right now, I want to just hold you in my arms and kiss you while we relax in bed."

"You're right...we should be fighting tonight of all nights. So, how about you roll over and bring me close to you. Then, we can share a nice kiss?" I laughed when Erin said that before going to roll her over in my arms. I then went to kiss her softly and smiled as we held each other close. "God, I love you so much." Erin smiled and nodded when I said that, just taking it slow with me as we held each other close and made love that night before falling asleep in each other's arms.

NOTE: Sorry that this one was so short...I promise that we are going to have some longer ones starting now. However, I am going to concentrate on Jay and Erin for a couple chapters. Enjoy and don't forget that I am always taking ideas for storylines. Private message me to give me them.