When I woke up I still was very dizzy. I heard the door open but I couldn´t open my eyes fully. Everything was blurry and yet I could see the outlines from Pitch very well. He sighed angrily when he saw me but didn´t seem to notice that I was awake.
"I can´t believe this idiot left the light on!", he cursed and turned the light off before he left the room again.
Slowly, I could feel tears run down my cheeks. His only problem was that I had left the lights on? I thought he would at least worry a little bit about me after seeing my wounds. But nothing. Not even a single sign of any feelings from Pitch.
What´s the point of living in this world? No one loves me, nobody cares about me, no one remembers me, I am nothing...
I slowly stood up and held on at the sink tightly. My vision was blurred a little and the tears were burning in my eyes. It was dark and just the lamp outside on the street lit up the room a bit. But I am way too scared to turn the light on again at the moment... It could make Pitch angry...
I washed my face and washed the blood from my arm. Even when it burned incredibly much and tears streamed down my face, I don´t regret what I have done. I regret that I haven´t managed to do it until the end again. After I had cleaned my arm and the small blade I put the razor blade back to the same place where it was before. Waiting for the next time. I closed the closet door and splashed a little cold water in my face. I took my towel, wiped my face and threw it into the hamper. I slowly reached for the doorknob and opened quietly the door a bit. Everything was dark. Looks like Pitch already went to bed. I quietly opened the door fully and walked in the direction from the bedroom when I noticed a light and quiet voices in the living room. So much for Pitch is already asleep. I slowly crept past the open living room door and saw Pitch sitting on his chair. He slept while the TV was running quietly. And you are telling me that I´m wasting too much electricity? Yeah, of course. When I finally arrived in the bedroom, I laid down on my little separate bed. It wasn´t even a real bed. There was no mattress, so it was only a bed base. Pitch meant it would be enough for me and brought me only to the normal bed when he wanted to have his fun with me. I curled up on the hard slats and hugged my legs. Of course, he didn´t gave me a blanket. Sometimes I wonder if he wants me to freeze to death. I sighed and closed my eyes. A completely normal Monday again.
The next day
I slowly woke up and felt all the pain from the beatings from Pitch and the lack of the mattress. I sat up and ran a hand through my hair before I finally looked around. Of course, I was alone again. Sometimes I really wonder what Pitch does that he always had to leave so early. He had left school a long time ago and had no job, yet he always had enough money.
I sighed, took care of my normal morning routine when I noticed that I was way too late. I quickly grabbed my bag and ran to school. In the classroom finally arrived I noticed how hungry I was. With a growling stomach I sat on my seat and sighed. Maybe I still have money or anything to eat in my bag? I pulled my bag to me and searched through it but didn´t find anything. Sighing, I noticed that one handle was still torn off. I probably need to sew that because I don´t think that Pitch is going to buy me a new bag.
Quietly, I drew stuff on my papers while the class filled slowly. When the teacher finally entered the room it suddenly became quiet. What is wrong with them? Usually it didn´t interest them when the teacher comes in.
I slowly looked up and my mouth dropped. I probably saw the cutest guy on the whole world. He was tall, slightly muscular and looked incredibly good. He was wearing a blue sweater and tight black pants. His beautiful White hair was messy and underlined his ice-blue eyes even more.
"Class, this is our new student. His name is Jack Frost.", said the teacher and Jack waved shyly and smiled to our class.
I think my heart just skipped a beat.
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How my life changed
FanfictionHiccup has many problems in his life. He gets bullied in school, gets abused by his boyfriend Pitch and so on. But what happens when his life completely changes as he meets the new boy in school? (I suck at summaries xD ) [Contains self harm, abuse...