How my life changed

Chapter 20

Hiccup's P.o.v.

The time I spent in the hospital was... I don't know how to explain it. To call it awful would be an understatement. The time felt like it wouldn't move a single bit, and there were no news about where Pitch or Jack were. They still didn't have the slightest idea where they might be and that made me more and more worried. Pitch could do everything he wanted with Jack and I wouldn't be able to stop him. Pitch almost even killed me if our neighbor wouldn't have helped me... I sometimes even thought that maybe Jack isn't even alive anymore... I just hoped the best for him. He is everything to me and if I find out that he isn't alive anymore, well then I don't want to live either.

Over the week Toothianna visited me every now and then and tried to cheer me up. It was really nice of her, unfortunately, it didn't help as much as she wanted it to. I even fought with a depression which slowly tried to evolve deep inside of me. All that I knew about this time was that I felt helpless and useless as I never felt before. Without Jack, I just felt very empty inside. At least my wounds healed well. This allowed me to leave the hospital on Friday already. My arm would just like my nose still take a while to heal and I was ordered to spend as much time as possible in bed but I didn't care. I liked everything more than to be in the hospital any longer. Also over the week I got to know North a little more. He was always very nice to me and almost cared about me like a father. Once he even said that for him it felt like I was a part from the family already. He also told me some funny - and for Jack probably embarrassing - things about his childhood. Once I had wondered why North was already this open to me even though I wasn't together with Jack. At least not fully. Then he told me something that almost made me cry.

He said: "Jack is usually joking with everyone and most people like him but... the truth is that Jack actually is a very lonely person. In fact, he spends more time in his room alone and doesn't like to spend time with others. He is a very complicated person and doesn't like many people but... One evening he called me. That was probably the first day you two had met. He talked one hour long just about how cute you were, and that he noticed that something was wrong with you. He immediately wanted to help you but didn't know how. Over the days he called me again and again - also in the middle of the night at one a.m. sometimes - and asked me for advice. On the Sunday after you left him he had also called me and just talked about how much he liked to spend time with you. I asked him if he thought to have a long future with you. Jack immediately said yes. He told me how he wanted to be at your side forever and would do everything to protect you. Even if it would cost his own life."

Jack had been so worried about me and knew from the first day that he wanted to be with me. And now... Now there really is a possibility that it could cost his life. I have to be honest. In the time I was in the hospital I very often though about taking a blade and distract me with some pain. But I refused it as I remembered that I had promised Jack to never harm myself again. It was clear to me that he now was more important than I am at the moment.

By now it was Friday and I and Tooth were on the way to her car. She carried my bags although I had fought with her about it for at least ten minutes. It turned out that Tooth could be pretty stubborn. I should note that for the future...

She smiled at me and got her car keys out of her back pocket and opened the car. I stood a bit awkwardly beside her while she opened the trunk and put my bags in it.

She looked at me and smiled softly. "You can already get inside if you want."

I nodded shyly and opened the car door and got in. My right hand was already okay again and I really didn't regret that I had punched Pitch. My only regret was that I didn't punch him another time. As I closed the door Toothiana walked around the car and got in on the driver's side. She slammed her door shut a little louder than I did and buckled up. Then she looked at me and raised an eyebrow.