How my life changed

Chapter 8

Hiccup's P.o.v.

Last night Pitch already fell asleep in the bar. Thanks to Tooth. She even helped me to take him home and drag him to his bed. We let him sleep on the floor beside his bed though. He sure will just think he fell off the bed. The good thing was that since he was deep asleep and didn't notice anything at all I could sleep on the couch in the living room. It was way more comfortable than the bed frame on which I normally slept on. I slept quite good what I couldn't do for a very long time now. I think I even had dreamed something, but I can't really remember.

Now I am sitting at the table and eating an apple. I was never really hungry in the morning so this apple was enough.

Unlike normal people, I actually was happy that I could go to school again. Even if it means that I had to ignore Jack, I still could look at him... My black eye was now healed so far that it was barely visible anymore. It still hurts though. But that's not a big problem and no one would notice that anyways.

I grabbed my bag and made my way to school. The day was normal and nothing really happened. Until the lunch break where I saw Jack for the first time again... He still looked so incredibly hot...

Damn Hiccup! Get yourself together! I am not allowed to show Jack how I feel in any way nor could I be with him. That could only bring us in trouble.

I sat down at a table and tried to eat my lunch without getting noticed. Apparently, I got noticed and Jack came directly over to me.

"Hiccup!", he smiled softly and sat down in front of me.

"Hey J-Jack...", I said quietly and kept staring at my food. I can't look at him too long. I would lose myself in his beautiful eyes way too fast... 

"Are you okay...? Why have you not been in school on Friday?", he asked me worried.

"Oh, I uh..."

"Hiccup...? Are you okay?" Jack gently took my chin so I had to look at him and in his beautiful ice blue eyes. I blushed and tried to look away, but it was impossible. In order to somehow get away from Jack, I just stood up and took my bag and walked away quickly. Again, I left him alone without any idea what was going on. His touch was so soft though... and the place where he had touched me still tingled in a good way as I walked down the hall to the toilets.

"Hey, wait!" Suddenly something grabbed me by my arm and stopped me. The grip wasn't strong or rough it was... gentle...

Slowly I saw to the hand and then to where it came from.

"J-Jack...!"

"Please Hiccup, talk to me. Something is bothering you, isn't it? Is it me? Or did something happen to you at home?" Jack looked at me concerned. He really cared so much about me?

"I..." I sighed and looked at the floor. I couldn't just tell him : Hey Jack, I think you're really awesome and I fell in love for you pretty hard. I would love to be your boyfriend but I have an aggressive boyfriend who would beat me alone for talking to you.

Jack sighed and let go of my arm. "I can't force you to tell me what is going on with you or what is wrong. But please, never forget that you can always talk to me... Even if we hardly know each other and you obviously try to ignore me, I still would like to get to know you and be your friend."

I blushed and slowly looked up at him. He didn't know me, yet he worried about me.... "Jack, I..." I sighed and looked at the ground. If I wanted to protect Jack before Pitch, I had to keep distance from him... even if it broke my heart. "Jack. It's all right. You just see things that doesn't exist. Now please, leave me alone." I turned around and walked quickly away. Internally, I broke in thousand pieces and I had to fight not to suddenly burst into tears. I just wanted to be with Jack. I wanted to be his friend... I wanted to be more than his friend... but I just couldn't. Jack should find better friends who wouldn't bring him in any danger. I just didn't deserve him...

I went on my way to my next class. Biology. The classroom was quite empty as I came in. Probably because I am so early but that didn't really bother me. I just made my way to my seat at the end of the classroom. I sat down on my seat and put my bag on the floor and took some papers out and a pen and started scribbling around on it. As the classroom slowly started to fill I more and more got annoyed by my classmates. Some of them threw paper balls at me and I could hear them laugh about me.

I heard a girl before me say: "Disgusting fagot" to her friend and then she glanced at me and started giggling. Okay, I didn't miss that. I just don't know how people have fun when they make the life from an other person to a hell...

Someone finally threw an open pen at me which made a line across my shirt. I gasped and looked at the spot on my shirt. Pitch would kill me when he sees this... While I was staring at the line, trying to figure out how I could remove it before I get home I heard how almost the whole class laughed about me. I sighed and put my arms on the table and buried my face in them. Can't just class start already? I heard the classroom door open again and it became quiet. Is the teacher finally here? I looked up slowly and noticed that it was only Jack. Why were they quiet when he came in...? Did anything happen on the day I wasn't here?

I sighed and buried my face in my arms again and closed my eyes. Maybe I could sleep during class. It's not like I have to know what the teacher talks about biology. I know everything about it anyways.

In fact, I slowly fell asleep during the class but suddenly the teacher said my name and I only muttered that he should be quiet until I noticed that I still was in the classroom. My head snapped up and I looked confused at the teacher.

"Yeah...?"

"I said that you are going to be in a group for the biology with Frost."

"Wha... What?!"

"If you wouldn't have slept all the time then you would have known what he is talking about you idiot." I heard someone say in front of me. He sounded pretty pissed off... and as good as everyone looked at me angrily. Looks like this is a lucky day for me. Not. That I have to work exactly with Jack while I tried to stay out of his way... and everyone else would kill to be able to work with him. But it has to be me...

"Couldn't I get someone else as a partner...?", I asked quietly but it looked like nobody heard me and the teacher just continued with telling them in which groups they are.

I sighed and let my hand wander over my face. This can only end bad.

"You have to get the project finished till next week on Wednesday. So you can work together over the weekend if you want that.", the teacher explained.

I already made my plans how I still could stay away from Jack. I could talk with him about a few things in school and could do the rest alone at home. It always ended like this. Whenever I'm in a group with someone, I'm doing all the work and if I didn't do it well they would blame it on me and the teacher would give me a bad grade and my partner a good one. I was always the one who did everything wrong. But somehow it didn't bother me. I prefer to work alone than with someone who doesn't understand anything from what we have to do. Pitch would force me tonight that I make at least three hours of schoolwork anyways. Even when I actually only had work for about an hour.

The teacher ended his explanation and the bell rang. I packed my stuff together and stuffed it in my bag and closed the zipper from it. Then I threw my bag on my back and left the classroom. In front of the door Jack already waited for me.

Damn Jack, stay away from me!, I screamed internally.

"Hey Hiccup... I wanted to ask if you want to work with me on the weekend for the project? We could go to my place if you don't mind it..."

"Yeah, I'll see if I have time and then I'll let you know.", I said emotionless as possible and walked to my next class. Why the heck did I even say yes? What about my plans I made?

My heart cries out for Jack but my head knows that it's impossible for me to be near him. And all because of Pitch...