He were surely sleeping like a baby, I woke up before the alarm so I just laid watching him snoring away, he looked cute as he were laid sprawled out across the bed, not leaving much space for me, I got out of bed running to the bathroom, wish this morning sickness would go away soon, I heard the alarm go off in the bedroom and be turned off. What are you doing he asked when I got in, what do I normally do in the morning I grimaced laying down beside him, aw sorry babe he said giving me a soft kiss, I better get up, can´t be late he said, you´re not gonna drive me to the dance studio? I asked, of course I am, get up now then he said going to the bathroom, I sighed getting up, it were gonna take time before we were as close as before the attack, I put on my clothes before going down in the kitchen getting a bowl of cereals, hey what´s up Ast asked when he came down, sitting down beside me, you said she never would come between us and now she has, we´re not as close anymore I sighed wiping a tear away, oh babe he said hugging me, I promise you it will get better, just give me time, maybe you need to talk to someone too he said caressing my cheek, I don´t know Ast, we had an amazing night last night and now this morning I just feel it´s all down in the dumps, it´s gonna take time, there´ll be ups and downs, but it will get better trust me he said holding my hand, why am I sat here complaining, it were you who were attacked, not me I said, hey you witnessed it, you´re allowed to feel down too, I think I´ll talk to my counsellor, seems like you could use it too he said giving me a kiss. We should be going now he said pulling me up from the chair, I got my bag and we went out to the car driving to the studio, oh god there´s loads of paps today I sighed, I´ll follow you in Ast said parking the car, getting out, running over to my side, come on he said taking my hand leading me through the crowd of paps all trying to get a snap of us, hey you two Jeff said as we came in, it´s mad out there today, we´ll get barriers set up later he said, sounds like a good idea Ast said, right babe I gotta go now, I´ll be back in 2 hours he said caressing my cheek before giving me a soft kiss, cheer up ok? I´ll try I said smiling weakly. I went over placing my bag in the corner, I slid down beside it putting my head in my hands, starting to cry. Hey what´s up Leon and Jeff asked coming over, it´s just not the same anymore, we had such an amazing night last night and today I just feel down in the dumps, she´s ruined it I said twisting my new ring, it´s gonna take time before you´re both over it, like I said to Ast, don´t say you´re fine if you´re not, let it out, just like you´re doing now, and maybe you should get some counselling too Leon said, Ast said he would talk to his counsellor today I sighed, sounds like a good idea Leon said giving me a hug, what´s that on your finger Jeff asked, Ast gave it to me yesterday, the two diamonds symbolise him and me and he´ll get it fitted with a blue or pink one too when we´ve had the little one I smiled, that´s sweet he said, and hey keep that smile on, you look prettier with it he grinned giving me a hug too, ready to dance he asked pulling me up, yeah I smiled, ohh I said putting my hand on my stomach, what´s up Jeff asked, bubbles I grinned, it´s moving around in there, you can´t feel anything on the outside yet though, think that´ll be around summer tour time, aw can I have a feel then, of course you can I smiled. For the next hour and a bit we danced nonstop, so we had a break when Ast came, hey, are you being lazy today he teased wrapping his arms around me, nope, been hopping around for the last hour and a bit, but I´ve been gone for two he said, oii shut it you I grinned, I stopped, putting my hand on my stomach again, what is it Ast said looking worried at me, nothing, it just moves around in there, feels like bubbles I said, aaw can´t wait till I can feel it too he smiled caressing my bump, starting to kiss me down my neck, Aaast I grinned, good to see that you´re happier now than you were this morning Leon said coming over, yeah Ast agreed, I spoke to my counsellor, you have your first session tomorrow afternoon, but Ast, no buts babe, it´ll help you too, alright I sighed leaning against him resting my head on his shoulder, he just caressed my back, making me sob, I think you´ve let it build up inside you Leon said, it´ll be good for you to talk about it, I think you´re done here for today, you two go home and relax now, thanks Leon I said drying my eyes, it´s alright babe, we´ll get through this together Ast said wiping my last tears away, giving me a tender kiss. I grabbed my bag and followed Ast out to the car, we soon arrived home and got inside. Ast went to the kitchen and I followed him, need to get something to eat he said, but I´m not hungry I said, you have to eat though he said starting to make noodles with chicken. Here you go he said placing the plate in front of me, now eat up he smiled giving me a kiss before sitting down beside me, ohh forgot something he said going to the fridge, pouring two big glasses of milk, placing one of them in front of me, can´t drink that much I said, I were just sat picking at the food too, try he sighed, after a while where I still really hadn´t eaten anything it got too much for Ast, think of the little one, you´ll lose more weight if you keep dancing and not eating he shouted, I´m just not hungry I whispered getting up from the table running up the stairs to the bedroom curling up on the bed, I could hear Ast coming to the stairs, I know you´re having a shit day today, but what about me? Ever thought that I might have one too, I just try to be nice to you, but that´s not working today is it? He shouted, I soon heard the front door slam, he had walked out on me, I just let the tears fall, why was I being so mean to him? I soon fell asleep.
