Ast I don´t like this I said as I was feeding Luca, aw babe you´re doing so great he said wiping my tear away, it was one of my last scars from being sexually abused, couldn´t handle being touched etc. on my breasts, Ast respected that, and never caressed them or anything. Please give it a try he whispered kissing me softly, it´s the best for him he said caressing my cheek, we got to get you over your fear, I´ll help you he said, I´ll just go and talk to the nurse he smiled going out. I finished feeding Luca when Ast came back in with the nurse, we two are having a shower he said taking Luca and putting him in his cot, but? I said, it´s ok the nurse said, he told me about your insecurity and I think the idea he has is great, I´ll look after Luca so long she smiled. Come on babe he said taking my hand, we undressed and Ast turned the wather on, he wrapped his arms around me caressing my back and kissed me softly, he looked at me slowly moving his hands to my front, carefully touching them, I flinched at his touch, it´s ok babe he said kissing me, his touch were so gentle, I started to sob, just let it out he said hugging me tight, still carefully caressing me, you´re amazing babe he said giving me a more passionate kiss, making his touch more passionate too, stop I whispered, ok babe, small steps he smiled at me wiping my tears away, he turned the wather off, I hate your dad for having done this to you he whispered giving me a tender kiss, I´ll never force you to anything he said hugging me, I just rested my head on his shoulder, he were nothing like my dad, his touch were always so desperate nongentle, like a hunger, Ast were so carefull always respecting me if I said stop, I felt lucky having him, what are you thinking about he asked looking at me, how much I love you I smiled kissing him passionately, not even my ex respected me like you do I said running my hand over his head caressing his neck, Love you too, promise to give breastfeeding a chance he asked, yeah I said, good he smiled starting to dry me off, before we got dressed.
We got back out to see my family had arrived, none of them seemed happy though, he´s gorgeous my mum smiled hugging me, why did you never tell me she said looking over at my dad, what? I asked, that he abused you, the nurse told when I asked after you, I couldn´t I whispered, you should have, I would´ve protected you she said, my dad came over, I´m so sorry he said hugging me, Luca is gorgeous I´m proud of you, you´ve done well he said giving me a kiss on the cheek, I´ll wait outside he said, saying goodbye to Ast too. Maria, Lucas and my mum stayed for a while, he´s so cute she said as she held Luca, and a totally mini Aston she grinned, yeah I smiled trying to push what had just happened to the back of my mind, I want one too she said looking at Lucas, you can´t have a mini Aston he grinned, ahh you know what I meant she said nudging him, we´ll see he said giving her a kiss, we´ll have to go now my mum said, we´ll see you again at the wedding she smiled, can´t wait to be your bridesmaid my sister smiled hugging me tight, I´ve given Aston´s mum my measurements for the dress she said, ok I said, sorry for making you broody I winked, how can you not be seeing such a gorgeous little one she smiled, yeah he´s too cute Lucas said giving me a hug too, they said goodbye to Ast too. Are you ok he asked after they had left, I don´t know, she shouldn´t have told I whispered leaning in against him, I know babe, but whatever happens now between your parents aint´t your fault, he should have told himself years ago he said giving me a soft kiss, I don´t want him to walk me up the aisle when we get married I whispered, ok he said, who do you want to then? He asked, I don´t know yet, maybe one of the boys I said, aw they would be honoured to do that he said, already thought about who should be the godfather for Luca I said, who? Ast asked, Reesh I smiled, aw he´ll be so happy when you tell him he smiled giving me a tender kiss, you agree then I said, yeah babe. Luca started to whimper in his cot, think someone´s hungry Ast smiled picking him up, I sat up in the bed laying Luca at my breast, see he likes it Ast smiled carefully caressing Luca´s cheek, Ast just sat watching us, kissing me a few times, it´s not that bad is it he asked when Luca laid on my shoulder, no it´s better now, I love you Ast I said giving him a tender kiss, I´m proud of you he smiled.
