Mmh gonna miss you I said cuddling up to Ast the next morning, gonna miss you too babe, but you´re gonna be fine he smiled giving me a soft kiss, we should get up now, Jeff will be here soon picking us up. We got up, Ast taking a quick shower, I got in my dance clothes, you´re dancing today Ast asked as he came in, yeah the audition is next week I said, oh yeah, I bet you´re gonna do well he said wrapping his arms around me giving me a passionate kiss, but be careful with those cartwheels he said, ohh I will, or maybe I´ll throw in a backflip or two too I grinned, you are NOT doing that, and besides you can´t do them he teased tickling me, aaahh Aast stoop it I grinned wrapping my arms around him kissing him making him stop, we better get down and eat breakfast he grinned placing small kisses down my neck. Ast took his suitcase and bag and we went downstairs to get something to eat before Jeff came.
That must be him Ast said when we heard a car in the driveway, we got our things together and I put on the FEK hoodie I had nicked from Ast, oh there my hoodie is, couldn´t find it he grinned, shame I just grinned giving him a peck on the cheek as we made our way out. Hey you two Jeff said, ready to go? Nope, not looking forward to be without Ast for three weeks I said, aaw babe don´t make it harder than it is Ast said caressing my cheek, you´ll have Jeff, Leon and Sarah to keep you company he said giving me a soft kiss, yeah and I´ll drive you to your counselling too, I promised Ast that Jeff said, aw I have the best fiancé and friends I smiled. We got in the car driving to the airport, reaching it sooner than I liked, Ast stopped for a few fans before we headed into the terminal, Ast got checked in, time to go now babe he said wrapping his arms around me, gonna miss you soo bad I whispered, I know, but you´re gonna be fine he said wiping my tears away, I put my hands behind his neck drawing him in for a passionate kiss, I´m gonna miss you too, you know that? He said, yeah I said caressing his cheek, I ran my hand through his hair giving him another kiss, Ast hugged me tight, I´ll see you in three weeks, I´ll text you every day and we can Skype in the weekends, Ast gave me one last kiss, and said goodbye to Jeff, you take care bruv Jeff said, yeah, and you make sure she eats Ast said nudging me, don´t worry Ast, I´ll eat I said, yeah don´t worry, we´ll look after her Jeff said, bye you two Ast said going to departures, when he were gone, Jeff gave me a hug, are you ok? He asked, no not right now I said, the tears starting to fall again, Jeff led me out of the terminal to the car, the fans were still there, is she ok? They asked Jeff, he just shook his head, aw cheer up Laura, he´ll be back soon they said, I tried my best to smile at them, none of those jealous girls there today Jeff said as we sat in the car, no I´m happy about that I said drying my eyes, ready for some dancing he asked, yeah I smiled, keep that smile on he said wiping my last tear away, he put the radio on as we drove off and JLS´ one shot came on, making me grin, Ast and his one shot I laughed caressing my bump, did he really get it in the first try Jeff asked, yeah he did I smiled.
We arrived at the Pineapple Studio, ahh bliss loads of paps as usual I sighed, yeah well Ast have tweeted that it´s me looking out for you while he´s gone Jeff said, yeah they´re probably gonna twist it like they want to though, yeah, but let´s just ignore them right he said, yeah I smiled as we made our way in, hey you two Leon and Sarah said, did you get him sent off ok? She asked, her question just set me off again, oh Laura she said hugging me, Jeff came over, you´re just not up for it today are you, I just shook my head, ok, we´ll run through the routine you´re not doing first then. They did the second routine until lunch time, right come on Laura lunch time now Jeff said, Laura you need to eat Jeff said as I were sat picking at my food, sorry Jeff I sighed, I eventually managed to eat nearly all of it, you up for dancing now Leon asked as we finished, yeah I said joining them the rest of the time. I went out to change my clothes afterwards, you did fine today Leon said giving me a hug as I came in again, thanks I said, you ready to go to counselling Jeff asked, no, but I have to I said, aw you´ll be alright he said hugging me, we got in the car and drove there. After yet another 2 hrs I got out from the counsellors office, once again I had been crying, it were hard to talk through my childhood and youth, missing Ast and the fact that I did have a trust issue with him after his cheating, it were hard to admit that, and I had to tell Ast that, but the counsellor had said it should be face to face, so the next three weeks would be hard, as he had said Skype wasn´t an option either. Jeff hugged me, were it bad today? He asked, yeah also today I sighed, and I got a task, what is that he asked, to tell my friends about my childhood, he said it would help me move on from what happened back then, so you´re not only here for what happened with Sarah in Denmark he asked, no I said, right let´s get you home now then he said.
