It doesn't end here !

Chapter VI

Perspective Lexa kom Trikru :

I just couldn't stay outside the room seeing my son in pain, I just couldn't. Yes, I knew that it was stupid. Of course, it was. He wanted peace and silence what he found here but I needed to talk with him, now. So, I opened the wooden door carefully, walked to the bed and looked into Aden's light green eyes. I saw them sparkling in the sunlight that fell through the window on the right. He looked surprised but before he could say something, I knelled down in front of him. ''Aden, I know what you said to Tara. I was standing there outside... I mean I did not want to make you fell watched but you weren't in the workspace anymore and, I was worried about you''

My son started to apologize but I interrupted him. ''Aden, I really don't want to interrupt you, but I need you to know that you aren't alone and that you will never be. Maybe Titus taught all of you to see love as a weakness but believe me, it's not true. Love can make you weak, yes but it can also make you stronger than you ever thought you could be. I am never gonna leave you. I promise. I love you like my own child and I want you to experience what real peace means. I wanna give you the chance to go to school in Sanctum, together with Madi. Gaia will take care of you there and in your free time on weekends you can come home to me and Clarke and the others. I want to give you the family no one of us here had. I want to break the cruel tradition with the conclave.                                                                                                                                                                  I want to work towards peace, together with you and Ontari & Wanheda... and with Tara. It's time to finally get the peaceful life everyone deserves. I will protect you with my life and I want you to grow up like you deserve to. As a child just being happy asking me to play football with you or to help you with school things even though I would probably fail but just to be a mother to you! Do you think that is what you want? A life we have all been dreaming of.''

I was scared this was only what I wanted but before I could apologize, he knelled to me and gave me a big hug ''Mochof 10 Heda!!'' I was so proud of my son talking in Trigedaslang and he made me smile, calling me Heda even though I wasn't the commander anymore but then I understood why. I still had the emblem on my head which Ontari gave me. I looked deep into his eyes and kissed his cheek. He turned red and hugged me again. After a while I stood up, reached for Aden's hand, and helped him to stand. I had a child now and I would do everything for him to grow up in peace and in safety.

Hand in Hand, we walked out of the room going outside where Clarke hugged both of us. After some minutes I went to Ontari and told her from my idea. The Heda who was broken before, started to smile and nodded her head. So, it was sealed, The future of the Skikru, Trikru, Floukru 11, Louwada Klironkru 12 and all the other clans.

10. Mochof – Thank you                              12. Louwada Klironkru -- Shadow Valley people

11. Floukru – the boat people

But before, I talked to Octavia. She wasn't really happy about my plan especially because of what happened in the bunker. She did not want to be a leader again, but I convinced her so a few minutes later, Ontari, Octavia and I were standing in front of the fountain of Arkadia. Many people were building a crowd around us. In the middle of all those people, I spotted Clarke holding Aden's hand and had to smile. I was doing this for him and for Madi and for Tara who technically still was a child and for every kid that would be born in the future. For everyone. For the clans, for the future of the human race.

And then, it was my turn and I started explaining. ''What we want to decide today is a way of working towards peace. Towards a state of being, we all deserve, every single one of us. From today on, everyone who wants education can get that. Everyone is free to decide where she or he wants to live at, and no night bloods will ever have to take part in the conclave. No innocent lives will be taken. Today is the day we will mark as the first step towards peace. It's time now to look at a bright future without any wars! From now on, there will be three commanders. Octavia will be commander here in Arkadia, Ontari will be Heda in Sanctum and I will lead Polis together with Clarke and Aden and with Madi of course. Today marks a turning point in our history and it won't always be easy, but it will be worth it. We can achieve everything only when we work on it. Together we will create a peaceful state. Kom Folau, Oso nag yon op 13!'' The other two started to look at me and I knew there was one thing left, I had to say. ''Together, for the human race'' Octavia, Ontari and all the other people around us were joining.

Some hours later, while the others were celebrating, I went to Tara, I had to. Thankfully, I realized that no one followed me. I needed to be alone now, and Tara was the person who made me feel like I had nothing to hide. So I sat next to Tara and took her hand. For some minutes I remained silent but then the words started to come out of me like a waterfall. ''Tara, I am so stupid. I mean do you really have to almost die so that I finally tell you how important you are to me... In my head, I was always calling you my little sweetheart but who was too afraid to tell you? Yes, Heda was. I wished so bad that you could hear me, Tara. I love you. You are my family. Please, don't leave us here. We need you; we all do.''

13. Kom Folau, Oso nag yon op – From the ashes we will rise

My voice failed, and tears fell down to my cheek naturally. I did not try to keep them or be strong. No, even a commander sometimes cries and that isn't weakness. Like Clarke once told me, yes over all those years, I was only weak for hiding from my feelings... ''Tara, you are truly loved. Please come back to us. We will get peace; you will get peace. You don't have to leave the shore for peace, no... I mean, if you want, you can stay in Polis with Clarke and Aden and me and Madi of course. With all of us. You can go to school. You can make music and you can paint. You can do what you want. I promise that I will never let anything again happen to you. I will protect you with my life if I have to. I can't lose you, please sweetheart, I.... 

Clarke came to me, so I stopped my sentence and just hugged her, listening to her calming words. ''Lexa, she will fight, you know that she is a fighter, and she won't give up easily. I miss her so much, but I believe that if she wants to come back, she will.'' and now Clarke was interrupted by Aden who came and hugged us both and so we remained in silence just spending precious family time even though Madi really was missing, and Abby was missing but one day we would all meet each other again, somehow...

The longer we sat here this way, the more we all three knew we had to leave and go out because in some way, sitting close to Tara broke all of us. Everyone around was happy, celebrating and maybe even being a little drunk and at some point, I started celebrating too. Aden was so happy around all those people having fun enjoying the moment, not thinking about what could happen the next day. I already really like the feeling of peace and not having to prepare for a war.

Around midnight Clarke and Aden went to bed because they were really tired. I was sure my girlfriend wasn't so tired, but she wanted to be around Aden to make him feel safe. She took a book from the workspace and sat on the bed that we would spend the night in. I kissed Aden's forehead and wished him a good night. After that, I sat right next to Clarke kissing her lips. I told her I'd be back in a few minutes.

 I needed to get some fresh air before I could sleep. I have to admit that I did not stayed outside but instead went to Tara. A little bit of hope in my head was telling me that she was able to hear me, and I wanted her to not feel alone. So, I entered the room which was filled with moonshine. What a special atmosphere I thought and came closer to my girlfriend's sister.