It doesn't end here !

Chapter VIII

A second, I thought about screaming for help but then. The person hugged me and whispered into my ear. ''Clarke, I know you can't see me but please don't worry, Lincoln is going to take you to the medical area. While I am staying here to protect Aden. Okay?'' I was scared. But not from the voice which belongs to Octavia but from the information that I had to go to Tara, and I started panicking but before she could calm me, I put on my jacket and went outside. 

 My mind started going crazy. What if the moment I had to say goodbye to my sister was now? I wasn't ready to lose Tara. She was my responsibility. I almost fell over a stone on the ground, but Lincoln caught me. ''Clarke, Shhhh don't worry, Lexa is with Tara, and she woke up. Emori is checking her vitals and it looks like all her injuries will heal completely.'' Now I was definitely overwhelmed with my emotions and hugged Lincoln who had to smile.

 I wanted to run to the medical area seeing my sister, but he hold me back and took my hand. ''Clarke, you are not going to fall above another stone tonight. Let me help you.'' So, I accepted his hand and we arrived in the area a minute later where I couldn't stop crying. I would never let anyone hurt Tara ever again. She was still a little pale and weak, but Niylah gave us hope she could go home to Polis in a few days. It was all depending on how quick her body would heal. Around two am Niylah went to bed again, but Lexa and I stayed by Tara's side. She was sleeping to gain energy again. Still Lexa and I felt way better being right next to her. Just in case something would happen.

Early in the morning, we were awakened by the sunshine filling the whole room with warm light. That still was way better than Lexa's candles. I had to smile about that thought. A sleepy voice next to me started murmuring. ''What's so funny babe?'' Now I started laughing. ''Well let's say my mind started agreeing that she likes to wake up to sunshine and not to candles. Sorry but the whole tower is full of candles ...'' ''Rude, just rude Clarke...'' And we both started laughing. And Tara joined us 

''Well I think candles are beautiful just not everywhere but a few... I mean can create a beautiful atmosphere and they are great in cold winters'' Lexa started smiling ''Thank you sweetheart. Clarke, you see, your sister knows how to appreciate candles. I maybe with a huge maybe agree with you Tara that I am a little obsessed with them but... they are so beautiful and... '' I played mad, but it did not work that great, so my two girls were laughing over me, and I joined them. I didn't have such a great time like right now since months and yes, I was deeply thankful for this. I just couldn't stop smiling and laughing and so couldn't the others.

It was one week after everything had happened and today, we would finally go home again. When I told Madi about the last days she was shocked, and it hurt so much that I wasn't able to give her a hug. Soon she would be home in Polis though. Lexa and I did not leave my sister's side. Even if we both knew we had duties to work off, but did we care in any way? Of course, we didn't. Under normal circumstances Titus would probably have gone crazy seeing how we didn't pay attention to our obligations, but he knew that we were afraid something could happen to Tara again and if he was honest, he agreed. I really didn't like the thought of my sister riding home to Polis after she was in the medical area for one week but there was no other way than on horseback. At least Aden got better in riding so he was sitting on a horse together with me, while Tara would ride together with Lexa and that was way safer for her.

After the last treatment, we were finally allowed to go home. Lexa took my sisters hand and helped her walk. Tara wasn't so stable on her feet yet so that we all really had to help her. I knew that Tara really did not like to feel as an obstacle even though she wasn't in any kind of way. She was my responsibility from the day she had been born.

Aden ran to us and gave Tara a big hug. They seemed like brother and sister to me, and it really made me smile. It was our family. We probably did not have the easiest start but through all of that we grew much stronger together and that was all what counted in the end. The horses were ready. Bellamy, Octavia, and Raven came to say goodbye. We all hugged each other and when it came to hugging Bell, a tear was rolling down to my cheek. I thought back to that one moment in Sanctum when we came back after I had lost my mother. The images of this day were never gonna leave my head.

 How I asked Bellamy to tell me that I did do better. I really wanted to be the good guy, but it just wasn't possible. Before I could keep staying in my thoughts, Tara came to me. She was stumbling so Bellamy took her in his arms to help her stand. She looked straight into my eyes and started talking "Clarke, we did do better, we really did. I know mom isn't... she isn't here anymore but we have each other. And she loved us both. She really did and I know that she is proud of you and one day we will meet again."

I started crying and this time my sister gave me a hug and I held her as tight as possible. I wanted her to be safe. "Oh Tara, I never wanted any of this to happen. You shouldn't have to live without her. I really wanted to do better. I always wanted all the best for you, for Madi and our people.'' ''Please Clarke, stop with this. We did do better. They tried to kill you and killed our mom. Not the other way round.'' Before we could continue this discussion Lexa came to us, hugged Tara, took her hand and started walking with her to the horses. Octavia took a chair and helped Tara this way to sit on Odin. He was the calmest horse I could think of. I was feeling way better to know that this was the safest way for my sister to get home. We said goodbye and started our four hours ride back home.