Euphoria

9: Don't Know What to Do

"I'm sorry, but I was a bit tired."
Kwon Areum. Why do you have to be so pretty? Maya felt her heartbeat rise. TokkiKookie or Idol Jeon were nowhere in her mind now. She felt guilty of having three people in her mind at the same time. She smiled,
"No problem, Areum. Want to hangout?"
Areum. Why did God made you so pretty? She rolled her eyes, immediately putting up a smile,
"Yeah why not? Let's get matching manicures!"
Maya couldn’t help but blush. She had seen couples go out using matching accessories. Why not manicures?
Maya was beautiful and famous amongst all. Almost overshadowing Areum. But how can one fall for their own shadow? Areum was just a shadow of Maya.
Areum would rather die trying to be just like Maya. Confident, chic, bold, seductive, soft. Maya was all over the place. And Areum was trying.
Yeah, Areum was TRYING. But Maya never knew what she held. It was effortless. She was just born with it.

Maya lazy slumped on the chair. She chose a nail art so different from her style. She has nothing against long, pink, glittery nails. It's just she isn't that fond of it. But Areum looked happy.

"This deserves to be on the instagram!"
Areum squealed, grabbing onto Maya's hand tightly. Maya's face glowed up, she felt her heart burst into million tiny sprinkles.
Areum took couple of pictures using her sweet time. But Maya felt her heartbeat through her ears. Blushing and giggling and blinking faster. The hair at the back of her neck standing up.

"Wow! You're literally glowing Maya!"
Maya looked at her. Was she that obvious? No she wasn't! If Maya would've been obvious, then Areum would've known what she really really wants.
"Yeah..."
"Why are your cheeks so red?"
"Um... Cream blush?"
Areum cocked eyebrows and shrugged,
"The blush is good, I guess? Come, let's take pictures!"
Maya's heart stopped beating when Areum snaked her arms around Maya's waist and pulled her closer. Areum was smiling and pouting for the camera, raising a V sign. Areum was about to take a photo when a notification surfaced on the phone.

•Shin Min-Yoo sent you a text

Areum panicked, opening the text in an instant. As if her life depended on it. Maya looked away, it wasn't very likely of her to peek into someone's phone. Areum was mumbling, as if memorising something.
"Nugu Group, Bangtan Sonyeondan, Sunday 11'o'clock... Seoulite Cafe, fan meeting..."

Oh no it was coming again! Wasn't it? Her ears ringing. Blood inside her veins rushing faster.
Bangtan Sonyeondan... Bangtan Sonyeondan... BTS... BTS... BTS...

Yamma ni ggumeun mwoni
"I need you girl, wae honja saranghago honjaseoman ibyeolhae"
Hi Guys, We're...
Yamma ni ggumeun mwoni

Yamma ni ggumeun mwoni

Ni ggumeun gyeou geugeoni
BTS!

"BTS."
Maya murmured, thin beads of sweat forming on her forehead. Areum was still looking at her phone. Maya, quickly peeked at her phone. She scanned the text,

We need to sexualise the Maknae Line. They are Nugus, they can barely speak out.

"Areum, what are you doing?"
Maya furrowed her brows. Areum was innocent. Maybe someone was trapping her. Maybe she wasn't aware of what sinister things they are making her do that.
"It's something personal Maya. Um, I'm getting late, so bye."
"Areum, wait!"
But Areum didn't. Maya didn't have enough in her to stop her. Her head felt fuzzy. She was one step closer to herself as she walked away from HERSELF. Jeon made her heart warmer. So did Areum. Keeping TokkiKookie aside, she had feelings for two people. Two different people. Two different souls. As if their were two souls inside her. One, that was just like the Maya seen in the nightmares. The other being a Maya who pretended to fit in.
Maya felt useless. Why did she even exist in the first place. She felt suffocated. As if the world was closing on her. She felt helpless. Should she side with the person she's falling for? How can she side with two people at the same time? Should she help the idol group who are appear nobody here? The group the man of her dream belongs to? Bangtan Sonyeondan.
As far as she remembers, she called him, Hwanggeum Maknae. That means he's part of the Maknae Line and has a group of sasaengs on him just to sexualise him. That's bullshit! Nobody should go through that.
BTS, the worldwide sensation from that realm. BTS the Nugu Group from this realm.

What day was it today? She quickly popped her phone out of her pocket, it was Saturday! It was already 5! She didn't have enough time! What can she do to stop... Areum?
Maya felt like a puppy, who did not have the faintest clue of what to do. Tears, triggering on the edge of both her eyes. Frustration taking the best of her.
She kept thinking of him. She kept wishing, her fingers clutched on her chest, her teeth sinking deep in her lips, for him to pass by and stay and listen to her. Just like the last time. Just like last time, when Maya felt helpless against this gigantic world.
Why was she even thinking of him to stay? She doesn't know him. They are strangers... Who have a knack of finding each other and holding them back from a fall. Why does she need him? Because he's in danger? Or is she in love? How can she fall in love? She has just met him thrice. And in dreams? Oh, how can she forget the dreams? She dreams of him everyday! But what if he isn't the sincere idol that she sees every night? What if he's the polar opposite? What if?
She doesn't care! She just needs him close by, now. She needs to tell him. She needs to warn him. But mostly she just needs him. With all her heart, she wished to meet him again. With all her heart she wished fo rhim to show up and calm her down again. She just wished.

"I have a knack for finding you... Maybe at times when you feel alone?"