Euphoria

34: Still with You, Always will be

Broken shards. Broken hearts. Maya had done it again. The bathtub filling with cold water. She just lied there. Almost passing out. Her fingers were shrivelled up. Her breathing hitched. Her eyelids slowly closing themselves.

"Maya, what have you done!"
Jungkook was at the verge of crying. He ran helplessly towards the girl, submerged in cold water. It was winter for heaven's sake!
Thank God he had an extra key to her apartment! Breaking the bathroom door wasn't that hard.
His knees hitting the wet floor, his  hands felt warm against Maya's skin. He took her hands, rubbing it to create some warmth,
"I'm sorry Angel. I'm so so sorry. But stay with me, okay? Just for a few more minutes."
He took her drenched body in his arms. Carrying her wouldn't be much of a hassle. Her heart was beating slow. He could feel it against his skin. She was alive. She needs to stay alive. He grunted, slightly opening the door with his feet so he can step out,
"Till we reach the hospital. Stay with me."

"I'm sorry, Angel."
Jungkook brought her closer. Kissing the top of her head. She was weak and fragile. He was guilty. Maya rested her head on his well built chest. Jungkook felt a burning sensation. Her temperature was really high. His arms wrapped tighter around her,
"Why do you keep on hurting yourself?"
"Just to prove that I can, more than the pain inside me."
Her pale lips parting. Her voice low. Tears engulfing in her eyes. Jungkook felt as if his world was falling apart.
"That's bullshit! Please promise me you would try not to hurt yourself anymore. You don't have to prove that you can hurt yourself. The pain inside is suffocating, I know. Please don't ever hurt yourself."
"Yeah. Maya, if you have a fight with him, hit me up, hit us up okay? Talk to us, vent it out. But please don't hurt yourself okay? You are just like our little sister. You know?"
Yoongi's eyes were on the road. His long fingers moving on the steering wheel. Namjoon sat on the passenger seat, hella worried about Jungkook and Maya,
"Yeah Maya. Even if you don't have a fight with him. Still call us or text us if you feel lonely. Just don't hurt yourself okay? Try to talk it out with us. If you have some girl talk, well... Um... Hey, wanna befriend one of our friends?"
Maya smiled, even though her vision was getting all blurry. Her face heating up just as much as her body. The boys had genuine worry laced around their voices,
"Thank you Oppa."
She snuggled up in Jungkook's arm. Slowly drifring to sleep. She was awake last night till almost 1:15 or so? Yesterday, she didn't even felt the numbing pain. It was more of a buzz. His arms was her safe place. She didn't mind falling asleep in his arms.

"Get up, sunshine. You need to eat and get well. After you are all better. We'd go to Busan and meet my parents."
Jungkook's sweet voice plunging through her heart. He smiled at her and helped her sit up. He had made some rice porridge, Jin and Yoongi were instructing him over a call all over.
Maya smiled. She felt weak, the fever was slowly going away. She was wearing his oversized shirt. He sat down next to her. He saw how messed up her hair was. His eyes glowing. She was looking adorable. But she needs to eat peacefully. Jungkook placed the bowl on the bedside table, taking a hairtie and putting her hair in a tilted ponytail. He felt proud of almost nailing it on the first go.
"Say ah."
Maya felt as if she was getting fed by a baby. She smiled, mimicking Jungkook's agape mouth. He was a good cook, no denying it.
He gently fed her. Occasionally blowing the porridge. He cleaned the corner of her lips. His palm on her forehead. Her temperature was slowly coming back to normal. He gently kissed her forehead.
Maya scratched the hem of his shirt,
"Don't go."
His eyes found the way to hers. A smile carved on his lips. He slid in her blanket and hugged her,
"I'll never leave you. I'll always be with you my love. My angel. My sunshine."
He cuddled her in his arms. Planting butterfly kisses on her warm skin. He hummed, trying to calm her scared heart. He would never leave her again. Not anymore,

Nal seuchineun geudaeui yeoteun geu moksori
Nae ireumeul han beonman deo bulleojuseyo
Eoreobeorin noeul arae meomchwo seoitjiman
Geudae hyanghae han georeumssik georeogallaeyo
Still with you

Maya felt a sudden peace. A one she felt she had lost yesterday. A one she lacked of when he misunderstood her.

Eoduunbang jomyeong hana eopsi
Iksukaejimyeon an doeneunde
Geuge tto iksukae
Najimagi deullineun
I eeokeon sori
Igeorado eopseumyeon
Na jeongmal muneojil geot gata

Hamkke utgo hamkke ulgo
I dansunhan gamjeongdeuri
Naegen jeonbuyeonna bwa
Eonjejjeumilkka
Dasi geudael majuhandamyeon
Nuneul bogo malhallaeyo
Bogo sipeosseoyo

His eyes scrunched close. Singing his heart out. He held Maya closer. Closer to his heart.

Hwangholhaetdeon gieok soge
Na hollo chumeul chwodo biga naerijana
I angaega geotil ttaejjeum
Jeojeun ballo dallyeogal ge
Geuttae nal anajwo

Jeo dari oerowo boyeoseo
Bamhaneure hwanhage ulgo inneun geot gataseo
Eonjenga achimi oneun geol almyeonseodo
Byeolcheoreom neoui haneure meomulgo sipeosseo

He wrote and composed this song with Maya in mind. His muse forever. The girl he saw in his dreams. The girl he crossed paths with. The girl who keeps him alive.

Harureul geu sunganeul
Ireoke doel geol aratdamyeon
Deo damadwosseul tende
Eonjejjeumilkka
Dasi geudael majuhandamyeon
Nuneul bogo malhallaeyo
Bogo sipeosseoyo

Hwangholhaetdeon gieok soge
Na hollo chumeul chwodo biga naerijana
I angaega geotil ttaejjeum
Jeojeun ballo dallyeogal ge
Geuttae nal jabajwo

He loves her to the moon and back. She is his bare necessity. The horror dawning on him. How lifeless Maya looked, passed out inside the tub filled with ice cold water. How the broken things in her room had her blood on them. How her heartbeat decreased and her breathing slowed down. How he went to the hospital with the cold body gripped in his arms.

Nal baraboneun huimihan miso dwipyeone
Areumdaun boratbicheul geuryeobollaeyo
Seoro balgeoreumi an majeul sudo itjiman
Geudaewa hamkke i gireul geotgo sipeoyo
Still with you

A tear waltzed out of his doe eyes. What if he had been late? What if he didn't have the spare key? What if he was a bit late? He can't lose her. He just can't. His lips met Maya's forehead, both crying, guilty of their mistakes.