Euphoria

31: Affirmations of Love

"Your Hyungs are really nice Kookie."
Jungkook was examining her fingers. Would a diamond cost much? Should affirmations of love cost you a fortune? No. It should cost you your heart.
He rubbed his nose on her hair. She smelt of roses. Blooming red roses,
"I know. But after this fiasco, let's meet with my family in Busan. We'd maybe disband soon, I need to start a normal life after that. And my normal life starts with you. As my wife. We'd have these cute children who would run around and call you Eomma and me Appa. We'd start a bakery of our own. We'd build our own happy ever after."
Maya's eyes glowed up. She had never had a family to call her own. Jungkook's ideal family seemed like her ideal family.
"We would?"
"Yeah we would. You are my spring, you are summer..."
"I'm sorry to interrupt you, but being your spring or summer would be the last thing I would want to be. I would rather be your winter or fall, if not a rainy morning. Cause the butterflies that stick in spring, fall out when winter strikes. The birds that hum every summer, hide during the rain. That's not how I want our love to be. I want to fall for you like a leaf that falls helplessly."
In front of Jungkook stood a lady who he fell for every second. At one moment she seemed mature. The very next moment she was acting cute and soft. Jungkook tucked her hair behind her ear,
"You're my everything. Call it summer, winter, spring, fall. You are my reason to smile. Stay with me forever."
"I will."
It was just a matter of seconds before their lips softly pecked against each other. They broke the short kiss, giggling into each others arms. Blanket covering their lower half. His oversized shirt, that Maya thought was a comfortable nightwear, brushing against his bare chest. Maya glanced at the clock, only 15 minutes till the pain takes the worst of her. She sighed, if she's seeing the future with him, he needs to see her first.
Jungkook scooted her closer, his voice soft,
"I also went through the same pain you do. Maybe I won't be able to feel it now, but I can help you. I'll hold you in my arms and hold you till it's all over."
Maya moved closer in his arms. Almost getting on top of him. She tugged the hem of his pajama shirt,
"Kookie, have you tried not sleeping?"
"Yeah I have Angel."
Maya felt her eyes widen. Her brain went full blank for some seconds. Was she the only one in need of help?
"You don't submerge in pain? You don't feel the extreme numbness until you faint? You can just stay awake?"
Maya was standing on her knees now. Her eyes fixed on Jungkook's. She resembled a pup. A very curious pup.
Jungkook brought her closer, right back in his arms. His bunny teeth showing,
"I don't now. I went through these when I became irregular on the meds a doctor gave me. Then I started skipping meds, till it became bearable. The meds don't help you. They instead put you in a never ending cycle. So when you try to break free from them, it hurts like hell. Cause your body had adapted to the meds, forcing you to sleep by 10 or 11. You stopped taking your meds for how long?"
"Almost two months. But I skipped every now and then before that."
Maya squeaked in his embrace. Laying down on his broad chest. She felt her heart get heavier, tears filling her eyes. Why? She just doesn't know. It was happening out of the blue. He wrapped his arms around her, into a very warm bear hug,
"Let's have a movie night Sunshine. You pick the film or should I?"
She sniffled, trying to hold back the sudden uprise of emotions,
"No, you chose it. I need to get a heads up about your taste on films before we invest our whole lives towards each other."
Jungkook flipped her over, using his arms to lift him up a bit. A playful shadow in both their eyes,
"Too late. I invested my everything in you already."
Maya's cheeks started going warmer. Jungkook on top of her. Unholy and sweet thoughts taking over her. Sweet thought number one, her reflection in his eyes. Unholy one? She would totally love to be pinned by him.

The dim lights, his heart beating slower. The soft mattress against her back. Her face glowed with the glimpses of the romance she had read about. Why did she look so angelic?
Maya bit her lips, as his cold hands came in contact with her skin. Jungkook jumped away, seeing how his hands had brushed against her uncovered waist, since her shirt had rolled up.
"I'm so so sorry Maya. I didn't mean to touch you that way."
Maya got up, hugging her right knee and lended her ears to her prince charming ranting about how sorry he is. Would tonight be too much to ask for? Would she sound like a pervert? What if he wants to save it for marriage? She has nothing against it. But a gut feeling bugs her, what if they don't make till the wedding bells? She should have atleast today. Shouldn't she?
His chocolate abs, his tattoo sleeve. His heavenly face and... Gosh! How his pink lips moved. The tiny mole on his lips. His doe eyes fluttering.
"Fuck it!"
Maya muttered under her breath. Climbing on Jungkook's lap, startling him. He soon got upto the pace and his hands grabbed Maya's waist. The size difference between them was one of Maya's kink. She tossled his hair. Taking his hand and putting it on her cheeks. A seductive shadow dawning on her. She took Jungkook's hand and slowly traced her face and neck. She leaned in and pecked Jungkook's soft lips. She slowly whispered,
"Touch me. Touch my skin. It won't matter much, you've touched my bare soul and heart and mind anyways."