Euphoria

20: The Way You Love Me

Euphoria
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Maya connected her bluetooth speaker to her phone. A familiar tune playing. A one heard in her dreams.

Neoneun nae salme dasi tteun haetbit
Eorin sijeol nae kkumdeurui jaerim

Maya hugged her pillow, settling down in her warm fluffy bed. His voice making her feel safe and warm.

Moreugesseoi gamjeongi mwonji
Hoksi yeogido kkumsok ingeonji

Things were going just like the other realm. The dreams. He was there for her, whenever she needed him. The feeling of ecstasy followed by glum. It was becoming hard to keep track of what she was feeling. As if all of this was just a dream.

Kkumeun samagui pureun singiru
Nae an gipeun gosui a priori

Maya was madly in love. Seeing a romantic hue in everything. Her pain still there, but she was trying to ignore it and keep this feeling for a bit.

Sumi makil deusi haengbokaejyeo
Jubyeoni jeomjeom deo tumyeong haejyeo

The happiness honestly seemed like a mirage. A mirage she never wants let go of. Her cheeks warmimg up. As her eyelids got heavier. She has gone through enough today. Her body letting go. She didn't fight back. It's her reality. She sees those dreams and she sees him. If her doubts are true, then she can tell him her every story.
"I wish you were here."
Maya whispered softly. Wanting him around her, just as his voice surrounds her. She wanted his cologne around her. She wanted his arms around her. He made her feel calm.

"Kookie?"
Maya tapped on his shoulders. He was lost in his thoughts. His eyes on the small necklace displayed at the other end.
Maya coyly fiddled with the hem of her dress. He insisted on taking her shopping before he leaves for overseas for promotions. She was okay with the dresses she had. He didn't agree. He was adamant that he needs to buy her every luxury in the whole world.
"Yes, love?"
She quickly lowered her eyelids. Her cheeks gaining colour. He loved seeing her shy. He always was the shy one in the room. He loved making her shy, and being confident in teasing her. He smirked,
"You were saying something?"
"Yeah... Um-I-um-was a-a-about to ask you how I look in this dress... I think, I don't..."
"You look beautiful."
His thumbs rubbed her cheeks, assuring her. She looked him in the eyes,
"I don't know Kookie... My thighs are way too thick, it's highlighting my waist..."
"Do you like the dress doll?"
"Of course I love it! I just don't like the way it fits on me, I don't have a thigh gap. I am overweight..."
"You are perfect just the way you are. I love you for YOU. And if you feel good in it, don't think about them. Okay? Now, tell me, do you feel good in this?"
"Yes, Hwangjanim."
Maya smiled at him. How he dealt with her insecure self. Of course she would pay it back when she gets the chance. She would be the perfect shoulder for him to rest his head when he would needs it the most. She would always hug him and reassure him that it's gonna be okay.

"Maya, I wish I could stay back..."
"Don't feel guilty. You need to promote your awesome songs. You would be back, I know and I'd wait for you. And after you're back from the overseas, we'll meet up again. You'll tell me everything you feel like, and I'll listen. I'll listen to every single word you say. We'd be in with each other's embrace again. Okay?"
Maya wanted her best to assure him. He shouldn't be guilty. Not one bit for working. He was a perfectionist. He was stubborn,
"Still Maya. Don't you want a normal who would take you to the mall and have cute dates? Someone who would stay 24/7 with you. Someone who wouldn't bail out because of schedules. Someone who is not me?"
Maya chuckled, her smaller hands, compared to his, wrapped themselves around his tattooed one,
"And why exactly would I want that? You are the best thing that could have happened to me. You notice every single detail about ne, care about me, whenever you have free time you are on my doorstep. You put me before you, which is highly wrong. Your visits to the Cafe and ordering the same Americano, flirting with me even after we are a thing now. You are the best lover. Trust me. If you think I deserve more love, know that if I ever want love, more or less doesn't matter, it better be from you. Now, Hwangjanim, I baked a mini chocolate cake for you, the one you usually like, and a normal sized tangerine cheesecake for your members. I thought it would be nice if I wished you guys goodluck. And I also bought something for you... Here!"
Maya rummaged through her backpack and pulled out a gift wrapped box. She fiddled with her fingers, a sudden embarrassment taking her aback. What were you even thinking Maya? He is a member of the biggest boy band!
"It's not much..."
"But it's beautiful!"
Jungkook softly took the feather necklace out. As if scared to damage it. One feather dangling at the very end and a very thin silver chain holding it together. There were some earrings in the box as well, but the chain was the show stealer.
Maya was totally flustered. She didn't just gift THE JEON JUNGKOOK an eerily crafted necklace and some earrings!
Maya soon found herself wrapped in his warm embrace. His nose crucnched and his bunny teeth flashed out. He was... Happy? He was happy!
"Thanks Maya. I love it. Quick heads up, I may even wear it for my comeback."
"I should've made it with a bit more care then..."
"No, it's okay. It screams YOU."

It was coming back. The colours of the kaleidoscope dominating the heartwarming scenario. A numb pain slowly growing at the back of her head. The voices becoming distorted. It was about time she leaves. It's about time things end. But she will come back again. She will.