[[忘羡 | WangXian 3]] : Our Flesh And Bones

[38.] Miao Lu.

Bai Li bowed, secretly relieved, leaving the room. Miao Lu stood up to join her, but Wei Ying reached out and grabbed her wrist.

- Stay. We are not finished with you yet.  –  he grinned.

- Master.  –  she bowed and as she tried to kneel back down. 

He said:

- Come. Come, sit next to me.

Miao Lu quickly saw that Hanguang-Jun bit his lip and went very pale. But she had to obey – she took the place next to Wei Wuxian.

- I have to say a few things just to you, Miao Lu. – he said, coaxing, and taking her hand in his.

Lan Wangji looked away, but Wei Ying ignored him. He continued:

- Whatever happens.... Whatever people say  –  pay no heed. This is between us, and actually – it is no one else's business. You know very well that many Masters take concubines, forcefully, just for pleasure, and some even love the children that such unions often produce. – he was looking straight in her face, and she tried to endure his eyes on her, listening to him carefully.

- You will always have our protection. Always. Nothing and no one is more important to us than this baby, don't forget that. If all goes well, I want you to be calm and content all the time. I will personally make sure of it, if I have to. You can trust Bai Li – she is a little rough around the edges, - he huffed – but she means well, and she is absolutely trustworthy. She has managed to prove this me for the last 15 years.

Miao Lu nodded, daring not speak.

- And now, about the sex. – he sighed, looking briefly at Lan Zhan. 

Wei Ying's face expressed such pain and anguish that the young woman fell the need to touch him and console him; yet she knew well that this was impossible. Lan Zhan looked lonely, abandoned. There was a special kind of sorrow and sense of desolation coming from his massive figure in waves. 

Wei Wuxian felt like crying, but kept on speaking:

- I am not sure what Hanguang-Jun's say in this will be, but I think that we should try at least one more time. I know this is not pleasant for you. Trust me, it is painful for us... - his voice broke and he looked down, needing a moment before he could continue.

- Wei Ying... You promised.  –  Lan Wangji said quietly.

Wei Wuxian looked up at him sorrowfully.

- Last night you promised. You promised me.  –  Lan Zhan's face was ashen. He spoke quietly, and there was great sadness in his voice. His eyes were staring at his hands in his lap, and his whole posture was like the one of a defeated man.

Miao Lu felt awful. 

Just in a blink of an eye, Wei Wuxian was kneeling in front of his husband, hugging him. She once again felt like an intruder in this home. She used to wonder what kind of men those really were – no man she knew would ever suffer and complain so much about pleasure and sex. But for Hanguang-Jun it seemed that being with her was worse than torture. She could not understand why. 

The young woman was certain that he was not faking it, it was not a pose. Every time her Master Wei would even look at her, touch her hand – he was visibly suffering.

- Lan Zhan... Lan Zhan... I am sorry... I will do it... Only me... I can't watch you in such pain any more... it kills my heart... I can't...

Wei Ying was sobbing, holding his lover tight, whispering in his neck tender words and caressing his back and his hair.

- No, no... Please, no... I.... -  Hanguang-Jun was trying to talk through tears, his arms tightly wrapped around Wei Wuxian's waist, hugging him, yearning to be close to him.

Miao Lu never realized that she had stood up and started speaking until it was too late:

- Masters, I must also say something.  –  she bowed respectfully, now that both of them were looking at her, still holding each other tight.

- I think we should just wait for a couple of days. It will be clear pretty soon, I hope so, with the new quarter of the Moon. I cannot watch you suffer so much, the both of you. Because I see it. And it hurts me too. – she sniffed, brushing tears away. – If I bleed this month, we can try next month. But if I don't – there is no need for this torture. It is torture for me too, Masters.

Both were watching her with astonishment, but said nothing. 

She continued, trembling a little:

- Also, I have made up my mind. After the baby has been weaned, I will leave here. I cannot stay here. My heart will be breaking every day, and I cannot live like that. I hope you will forgive me, Masters.

With these words, she bowed and left the room, almost running away.

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Note:

What Miao Lu might look like:

Source: 

https://wiki.d-addicts.com/Sun_Lu_Lu_(actress)

Source: 

https://www.instagram.com/p/B_RqyaSllLi/?epik=dj0yJnU9ekpGQXpxTmFfV2VRcHVtOTNSR2U0cEZMUlAxbnN0ODImcD0wJm49di16QnE1cFBJN1RNOTNKX01YQ0dhdyZ0PUFBQUFBR0U3Vmh3