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Chapter 33

Durga's POV

Yesterday was Rudr's Operation and they are keeping him in observation for 24 hrs. Everyone was excited as well as tensed.

Before going to the operation theatre he
asked me something, he wanted me to be with him when he opens his eyes. And I am sitting beside him waiting for him to open his eyes... To start our life... We will live together forever happily loving each other...

Maybe God gave me all this suffering to have a happy future without any chaos, who knows...

I looked down at my love's face, he was sleeping peacefully, I took his hand in mine and gave a kiss on his forehead.

"Open your eyes Rudr, I am here as you wanted... Holding your hand wearing a saree... I didn't know you wanted to see me in a saree though, mamma and Advika selected it for me, don't you want to see this?..." I whispered in his ear and felt a slight movement of fingers in my hand.

'Oh god he is going to wake up' suddenly I began to get nervous.

'He will like me, right?... What if he doesn't?... What if he didn't accept me?... Calm down Durga, everything will be alright, he promised you that...' I wiped my tears and took a deep breath.

He was opening his eyes slowly, adjusting to the light. I rubbed his hands softly to calm him "Rudr..." I called.

"Hmm..." He hummed and tilted his head to look at me.

I don't know how many emotions passed through his eyes... There were confusion, horror, and at last anger...

'Anger?'

"WHAT THE HELL...WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE YOU BLOODY WOMEN?" He roared at my face, he was shivering in anger.

I moved back in fear, 'What happened?'

" How dare you to come near me haan?. you bloody wh**e, because of your lies I lost everything, aren't you satisfied with that? What more is there to ruin? I lost my eyes, my grandma, my whole life shattered because of you, I lost 6 years of my life... What do you want now... I can't believe a woman can go this low for what!!... To sleep with me?? Is that what you want, you slut..."

"Rud.."

"No, don't you dare open that slutty mouth of yours,  I wish this day never came, I wish I was blind again... My darkness is better than seeing your ugly face!!!"

'What is he saying? How did I ruin his life? Because of me, he lost his vision? What are all these?' tears were rolling down my cheeks, it took me a lot to find my voice back.

"You are-" I tried to say again.

"Don't you get it, women!!!... You are a slut and I don't have anything to do with you, seeing you are making me kill you right now... GET THE HELL OUT OF HERE!!!" He roared again and suddenly he pressed his temple closing his eyes...

"Oh my god Rudr, is your head aching?" I asked in concern trying to massage his head.

"Don't touch me with your filthy hands!!!" He pushed me and I fell hitting my head on the side table.

"Don't touch me, god knows with how many men you have slept, bloody whore!!!"

'This is it... I don't want to hear this anymore... There is nothing left for me to tell him... He knows everything... He knows I am a slut, a whore... Who does anything for sex, isn't it what I was doing with him?... Why did I forget who I am?... Why am I even staying here?... Why did I believe his words?... Why??...

He doesn't want me anymore, I am a whore... What was I even thinking? No one will accept... There is nothing called love in this world... There is no forever... There is no place for a whore in this world... Stupid me...'