Obscurity (2) - JJ Maybank

Hey guys, quick message.

TW- SELF HARM

So I know that September is suicide prevention month and I just wanted to come on here and have a quick chat with you guys. I know that many people have commented on my books and they actually make me so happy I am smiling down and blushing at my phone like an idiot. 

But, if you're like me and don't have the best mental health or aren't in your best mental state right now, that is okay. I used to self-harm last year and this year but since then I have been 3 months and 15 days free. 

This has been the longest I have been free for and I do want to tell you guys, for like the thousandth time but whatever, that I am always here to chat. 

I am not a therapist or any type of person that could help you understand what you are feeling and why but I can be here simply to listen to you and try my hardest to be with you. I want people to feel comfortable on my books and I believe due to the comments that people are. 

Suicide and self-harm and many of our problems in society today and I don't want to help or fix anyone, I just want to be here to listen and understand what you are going through. Life is tough, I know and I know you know that. 

No matter if you have been born into a poor household or a richer household, you may only have one parent, or you may have none (rest in peace), I want to listen to anyway I can. You guys have become friends with me because I feel like I can express myself in this book. 

I uploaded a similar post to this one in my other book Dismissed, and I just felt the need for people to know this. 

You may not know what I look like, or what life looks like but you do all know who I am. Just by reading my book, you have decided to become a part of my life and I just want to be there you guys as much as you have been there for me. 

Life sucks, life is shitty but we can't help that. You may be more like Aria and have struggled with a lot and can't open up, or you may be like Kie who has been given a lot but have these unnecessary obligations thrown at you, either way, you may just want someone to talk to. 

I don't know who you are irl but that might be exactly what you need. Someone who won't judge you or expose who you are to your life. It is up to you, you are not being forced to dm me and you are not being told you can't. 

My life has changed since I started to write this book, I have been happier and more excited than I used to be. If I could be there for you guys it could mean that I have done something right in my life.

If you chose to dm me don't feel the need to open up about your life, if you wanted to you could just explain a fight you have gotten into you just someone to talk to that doesn't know you or you could tell me your 3 AM thoughts. 

Whatever way I can be there, I will. 

Thank you all and I hope everyone stays strong, the world is a real bitch but just know that you all have at least one person who cares about you 🙋‍♀️. Love you all angels, xx.