Her first time

Chapter sixty-two.

With his hands in his hair and a squeaky voice, he says "No, not really." I feel for him and I want to be there for him, but I don't know how. He doesn't tell me anything and if I try we end up fighting. I can't help myself; I have to try, and I know I will keep trying because I love him. But I will never admit or say it. "Well, what happened in there? Do you want to talk about it?" I ask him in a soft, gentle voice, hoping not to cause an argument.

"Actually I do, but not here." He says and I can't believe he wants to talk. From the inside, I'm jumping up and down and making a little dance, but I act cool and say "Well, I would like that."  "Let's go then." In the car, I can't stop thinking about dessert. I was looking forward to it I hoped it was ice cream or tiramisu. Oooh, I love tiramisu. It's like Justin can read my mind when he says "What are you thinking about ?"  "Well, I was thinking about dessert. I'm crav__" but before I can finish he says "Good idea, I was thinking I could have you as my dessert." and my mouth falls open.

I like how he talks dirty to me, but I won't let him know that. "What," I say and gasp. "You heard me. Miss Lane," he says and smirks. The way his muscles move under his tattooed skin while he shifts to another gear makes my skin tingle. He puts his hand on my thigh and my heartbeat immediately rises at his touch. "Where are we going?" I asked him as I noticed we were not going back to the dorms. "You will see when we get there, but first Mac Donalds."

He says and smiles while he squeezes my thigh. After a few minutes, we got to order. I am a girl with a big appetite and I couldn't help myself so I of course had to have a whole menu and so did he and he even got large fries. We are too good together I say to myself but then my subconscious reminds me of all the things he did to me before this, before Justin was nice to me. He noticed my smile faded and said "What's wrong?" "Nothing I was just thinking about all the things that you did and went wrong before you decided to be nice to me."

"I'm sorry I was a dickhead but I'll try for you not to be," he says and smiles. "I know you, Rach. You are thinking about ice cream aren't you," he asks and laughs. I would do anything to hear his loud and contagious laugh every day. I laugh with him and feel my cheeks slowly blush. "Well, actually yes. Can we go just one more time?" I beg and he laughs then says"Well yes of course we can. You're gonna need it after tonight." he gives me a dirty grin and I look down to the ground.

Already imagining what he would do to me, cause I know exactly what he's talking about. I always get insecure when he talks like that. While wedrovee trough the drive-through for the second time in one hour I wondered where we were going after I ate my ice cream. Within a few minutes I ate the ice cream all by myself Justin tried to steal a bite but I wasn't having it. He starts the car and turns on the music while I throw our trash and leftovers in the huge trash cans in the parking lot. I rushed back to the car after I threw it away. When I am close enough I see Justin smerky smile. I open the car door and he looks me up and down and says "It's very nice to look at it bouncing up and down while you run, especially when I know I am the only one that gets to see it"

I blush and take back my seat quietly, not sure what to say. The drive is short and after fifteen minutes, we drive into this beautiful small neighborhood that looks like a small city. There are some family homes and huge apartment buildings. I look through the windows into the living rooms of the apartments and houses while we slowly drive through the neighborhood. He stops in front of a small apartment building. It looks beautiful but my mind is trying to figure out why we're here and what are we're going to do. Luckily my thoughts and questions are answered when he says. "Here we are. What do you think ?" He asks and I can see the excitement in his eyes.

What? Where is this going? What does he mean? I don't understand what's going on. "No answer then? Well, let's just go I want to show you something." He says and then gets out of the car. I'm totally confused but say " Uhh yeah no sure yeah. It's beautiful." And follow him up the stairs to the building. When we enter my mouth falls open. It looks beautiful and so peaceful with the white walls and clouded sofa some plants and a bookcase. He then dangles a key in front of my eyes. My mouth falls open and I'm so confused but also excited and nervous. All these emotions are running through me and I can't really understand what's going on right now.