Her first time

Chapter sixty-three.

We walk up the stairs to the first floor and it's extremely quiet. I don't know what to do or say. The first floor has three apartments. Justin has a key that says F1. We stop at the first door that has the same number as the key on it. My heart starts beating faster and faster. Justin opens the door en gestures for me to go in first. My eyes go wide and my mouth is practically on the floor. "So you like it?" "What is this? Why? I mean I just I don't understand" I stutter while walking through the beautiful dark wooden kitchen. 

Tracing the marks on the countertop with my index finger. "This could be ours." "WHAT?" I say a little bit too loud. "Well, just like I said. Do you like it? I mean now that your mom isn't paying and that is kinda my fault. I had to do something." "No this is too much, you mean you wanna live together? I don't even have the money. I mean we can't this is so soon." I blurted out. "Yes, about that. I have to congratulate you cause Allison found you an internship and you will make enough, but luckily we do not have to rent it." 

"She what? Oh my gosh. Wow, that is just.__I mean I'm so thrilled. I___thank you." I say way too loud almost screaming, while I clap my hands together from excitement. "From here it's only a twenty-minute drive to the hospital and five teen minutes to school." He says and takes my hand while we walk into the huge and beautiful green-white master bedroom. In the center of the room is a vanilla white king-sized bed. With a dozen pillows on top of it. And from the bedroom, you walk right into the master bathroom and a walk-in closet. 

I make a swirl in the bathroom and walk back to the master bedroom where Justin is sitting on the bed. I take a seat next to him and see fear, but also excitement in his eyes. "So?" he says and keeps looking down at the floor. I try to think of all the reasons why living together is such a bad idea, but right now I can't make up one. I know he's done some really messed up things and I know I shouldn't want this, but I do and I need a place to stay. It's free of rent so that is amazing. I don't see any reason why I need to turn his offer down. After two really long minutes I say 

"Well, this is way too big for just the two of us. I might have to sleep it over, but I will think about it. How come we don't need to pay rent?" I see a huge smile return on his face. "Just think about it. We would wake up together and I can take you whenever I want." Hmm, he avoids the question, but I can't bear my luck. I'll bring it up later. Now I'm taking it all in and let myself be happy for a moment." So that is what you want huh," I say a little nervous. "Well, I sure do miss Lane. In fact, I want you right here and right now." 

He says and slowly gestures for me to lay flat on the bed. I do as I'm told and the second he touches me my skin is emediatly on fire. "We can't do this. Not here." I say and let out a breath. "Yes, we can." He says while his hand slowly slides up my thigh to that sensitive spot. Rubbing me over my jeans. My breathing quickens and my heartbeat rises. I paint loudly and I hear his heavy breathing. But then within seconds, he is back on his feet. "What__ Why__ How what happend?" I say confused. "Nothing I came to know we couldn't take it any further here. He holds out his hand for me to take it and follow him and without thinking I do.