So I had an emotional breakdown again guys. The problem with me right now is that I've been keeping myself busy to avoid focusing on the fact that im hella alone b.
It kinda hurts alot to think that some boys don't like me and maybe is because of the way I look or act. It hurts more knowing my efforts to fix myself aren't working. I feel so alone. So deserted. I act happy because sad kali is so draining and it akes everyone around me dreary and pissed off.
But now I'm tired and all these emotions are surfacing that I've been trying so hard to forget. I just really hate that nobody ever listens, or cares.
In a sense, I'm happy with being alone, but once i drown myself in my own tears, I get tired of it, and I start to feel like I need a shoulder.
I feel like im drowning with my eyes open, and everyone is happily swimming around me and im under srtuggling to keep my lungs from collapsing. every second i sink lower and it gets darker and theres more pressure on my head and chest, making my ears pop. I look up to see if i can get help from the joyusly moving legs but they don't see me hurting. they don't see me dying.
I'm the lone fish. That's all.
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my summer bullshit.
Teen FictionWell, I'm a teenager. Um... Next year is my first year in highschool and well... I'm gonna take you all through my shitty journeys that have nothing to do with you, yet I would like you to read about it. Here is my life's bullshit.
