my summer bullshit.

Missed exits.

July 11/ 2:21pm/ 2014

So today was really a bitch ass day. My friends bailed on me, so I didn't go to blue bayou yesterday.

my mom promised to take me today because it wasn't supposed to rain.

Oh but it did. And it poured. We ended up sitting at the dining room table, staring at one another, coming up with a gameplan.

We had a six day limit on our second day free pass, and tomorrow was the sixth day.

so my mom agreed to wake up up early tomorrow, and drop us off there all day.

But today, I had to eat waffles and listen to the goddamn rain.

With my brother, and his weird ass friend Benjamin.

For some reason, I couldn't get Nash out of my head.

He was cute and funny and cool and his voice was yez.

He acted like someone I would love to have in my life, long term. But not like a relationship or anything, just a really great guy friend. I wanted to talk to him like basically everyday. While we talked the other night, he asked for my kik. I basically did backflips off of the couch.

Long story short, we text all night, but honestly, I wouldn't trade Isaiah for him.

It only took one night of talking to someone else besides Isaiah, to realize that I didn't want to talk to anyone besides Isaiah.

Anyway, I basically went back into my room after excruciating awkward silence during me, kohl, and ben's little brunch.

I like Benjamin because I know he has had a rough past. He's adopted, and his legal guardian has forced him to go to private school all his life. You can tell that the kid is kind of ignorant to the whole public school system. Also, he acts nothing like us contaminated public school children.

He lies his ass of though.

And he's absolutely obsessed with Taja. He's even written a song for her. I know, weird huh?

I took a nap, despite me just waking up, and only woke up because Isaiah was calling me. When I woke up, it was about 8:00 pm, and I really wasn't in the mood to be awake.

I had an extreme nightmare, that still kinda scares me.

But then again, I have been having nightmares since I was ten. I can't control them anymore, the older I am, the more graphic the scenario.

On this particular night, I had a dream, that I was stuck in a vice, and the only way to loosen it, was to tell my worst enemy each and every one of my secrets.

I don't know who was playing my worst enemy, I don't exactly remember, but I think it was a message.

Basically, this was a really boring Friday, and I spent the rest of the night on the phone with my partner in crime.

Tonight, I tried on a bunch of my outfits. I made a great effort to find my first day of school outfit. I also, did my make up.

This is usual for me, I always play "dress up" before I go to sleep. I fell asleep at about a good 6:57 am, with the help of my dad getting home, and possibly catching me on my phone.

He hates when I'm on my phone after 12.

So I hung up with Z, and went back to sleep.

The end.