my summer bullshit.

ive lost track

ok just to say, this is gonna be kinda all over the place because I haven't updated in like 2 weeks.

what can I say? I'm amongst a breed of non motivated, self centered, lazy ass, crybaby teenagers.

anyway, the first event I remember was the night of the BET awards.

I called Isaiah at about 1:27 a.m, and we talked for five minutes before he came out and said "I think we should try and sleep, ya'know, get our schedules right for school."

successfully hiding the disappointment in my voice, I said "yeah, sure... ok?"

He says

"Call me in an hour if you aren't asleep."

I knew I wasn't gonna be sleeping in an hour, so I just levitated to Instagram. I looked at the fucking...

CAN I JUST ASK WTF IS WRONG WITH THESE HORNY ASS JERKING OFF ASS WANNA BE FREAKY FUCKING TEENAGE BOYS POSTING THESE SEX CARTOONS ALL OVER THE FUCKING PLACE?!?!?!?!?!?

so after my mental meltdown with that shit, I text my best friend Samia and told her what Isaiah did.

honestly, it was a big deal to me bc I wanted to talk to him so bad.

all she said was "what a jerk"

and then she went back to talking about herself ._.

she does that a lot, but I don't mind because apparently listening is something kali has to be good at to keep friends. If I didn't listen I would be friendless because after all, we need someone to vent out problems to, right?

I'm that friend.

But it gets tiring. Can't I just have a friend who is actually somewhat interested in my-

HOLY FUCK NIZZLES GAVIN JUST TEXT ME DHDJDHAJAKHDD

who's Gavin ?

don't we all have that one ex, where no matter what happens/happened, you'll still love them? well I don't love Gavin honestly, I mean that in the friendliest way possible.

me and Gavin met when we were mere puberty starters (11 year olds)

when I looked him in his eyes it was nothing id ever felt before.

I was on the phone when I met him, but when we looked at eachother I was like:

"gurl lemme call jhu back"

and then I dropped my phone off the bleachers.

(Back then, androids were completely indestructible, you know what I mean)

but don't get me wrong, that's as far as it went. We didn't talk to eachother at all that day. All I did was find some weird way to yell out my age and see if he was the same age.

he was haha.

it literally took me 2 months to actually speak to him. And the way it happened was quite embarrassing.

see, I met him through my brothers football team (hence, the bleachers)

and his football team used to take them out for food after games in the morning.

so on this particular day, we went to Burger King.

Gavin had on this insane little adventure time hat. It was just like omg. But I thought it was the coolest shit ever. (I forgot to tell you, Gavin was a quiet little shy, scrawny, blond haired white boy, with one of those hats that came over his ears with the braided strings on the side)

but he was the hottest boy I thought I had ever seen.

anyway, he was at the little soda machine refilling his cup, when I told my brothers best friend Marcus (the dumbass who kohl went to the movies with) to come here cause I wanted to tell him a secret.