{Losing Interest- itssvd}
At night you woke up to a feeling of something squeezing you. You were only half awake and you didn't make sense of what was happening for the first couple of minutes.
"Bucky stop squeezing me." You pushed his arm back. But it made its way back into the same position and continued tugging on you. The feeling became annoying rather quickly.
"Bucky I'm trying to sleep."
"OUCH!" You flinched sitting up. "Bucky what the-"
You felt Bucky's head flipping from side to side, you grabbed your phone off the right night stand and turned it on shining the dim light on the other side of the bed where Bucky was.
"Bucky," you whispered pushing him. You couldn't tell if he was having a nightmare or if he was just uncomfortable. Your doubts quickly faded when you heard a small whimper escape his sealed lips.
"Jesus," you whispered to yourself "I thought this had stopped." You got out of bed and switched on the lights almost blinding yourself.
"Bucky," you shook him gently. "Bucky."
You leaned over him and continued trying to wake him up.
Just as you thought he wasn't waking up he suddenly sprang up and hit you right in the forehead with his head.
"Fuck!" You shouted holding your head in your hands. It took Bucky only a couple of blinks to realize what had happened. "I-I'm so sorry, oh my god I-"
"It's ok, it's ok just calm down." You rubbed the sore area.
"Can you give me a second," you got up walking into the kitchen to get yourself a pack of ice. You came back holding it against your head.
"I'm so sorry doll, I don't know why or how or-"
"No, no it's ok, don't worry about it, do you need some ice?" You asked. He shook his head.
He looked so worried.
"Where you having a nightmare?"
He looked up at you with guilty eyes "Um yeah."
"Was it about the past you? The Wintersoldier you."
"Y/N I really don't think it's important right now, is you're head ok? I'm really sorry I don't know how- I just jumped up-"
"Bucky it is important. Why didn't you tell me?"
He sighed "I did. I don't always get nightmares."
"You can't sleep properly like at all without Starks pills?"
He hesitated before nodding.
"Why didn't you tell me? I asked you before."
First Steve, then Sam and now Bucky? Was anyone ever going to be honest with you? Was anyone ever going to tell you something important without hiding it away from you first?
You sighed, flipping the ice pack the other way. You thought about hugging Bucky, but he didn't look like he wanted anyone near him, let alone touching him.
"I'll sleep in the living room for the rest of the night, I think you'll be a bit more comfortable." You grabbed your pillow.
"Maybe I should-"
"Bucky," you gave him a look. He nodded watching you leave, switching off the lights before closing the door. You threw your pillow onto the couch groaning, your forehead was aching, was his head made out of metal too? Why'd it hurt so much...
You finally got comfortable on the couch putting away the ice pack and shut your eyes closed facing the back of the couch. After ten minutes you heard the door to your room open. You were going to sit up but you stopped yourself and lay still. You heard light footsteps head towards your direction.
"Y/N?" Bucky whispered.
'I'm asleep, I'm asleep, I'm asleep' you kept repeating in your head. You then heard the footsteps travel behind you.
You were finally gonna open your eyes and turn around when suddenly you felt a hand wrap around you. You furrowed your eyebrows in the dark. Well obviously it was Bucky, but his movements were so quite and gentle you were almost surprised. You felt a figure press against you.
You were going to say something like 'Barnes did you just hug me in my sleep' or 'did you just spoon me', but you heard a small sad sigh and instantly felt bad. He was just a big softie, you can't blame him for that.
The next thing you were worried about was him squishing you with his hands in your sleep, but the only way you could determine if that was going to happen or not is to see wether you were going to wake up tomorrow or not...
