The next day Wanda left at around noon and you impatiently began waiting for Steve and Sam. Mostly Sam because he promised to tell you everything and you wanted, no needed to know.
You waited, waited, waited and waited. You watched a movie, had dinner, took a bath, but Steve and Sam still haven't showed up.
You started getting worried and called Sam. No reply. You tried Steve.
"Hello?" Said his confused voice. It was like a massive boulder was lifted off your shoulders.
"Steve!" You breathed. "Where are you guys you were supposed to be back ages ago."
"We'll be back tomorrow."
"Wha-what? What happened? Is Sam there?"
"No, he isn't. He's in the operating theatre." Steve said quietly.
"What!?" You shouted through the phone.
You began hyperventilating. Steve heard you through the phone "Y/N? Y/N are you ok?"
You ignored him. Your hands began to shake and your phone fell out of them. You felt weak, your head started ringing and you couldn't breathe.
"Sam," you kept repeating. You swallowed feeling the pain go down to your stomach. You leaned on the wall sliding down. You let out a whimper. Your hand shot to your mouth.
You felt hot, and the room began getting smaller and smaller. You got up, shaking, and made your way over to your bathroom. You fell into the bathtub barely breathing. You reached for the tap and turned on the shower. The cold water sprinkled down from above you. You cried. Cried like you never did before. Sam was the only thing you had left that you truly loved and you couldn't lose him. You clawed at your face, screaming.
You shivered endlessly. You felt your brain overload, like a computer. You screwed your eyes flinging your head back against the cold bathroom wall.
Usually Sam was there to help, but this time he wasn't. He was far away and also in pain, possibly near death. You breathed in and out trying to calm yourself down. "Everything's gonna be fine," you whispered, pretending that it was Sam telling you that.
"It's gonna be fine. Fine." You breathed. "Fine."
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You were woken up by a sweet, raspy voice calling your name. Your eyes fluttered open and you saw a familiar red head. "Nat?" You whispered. She smiled "Cmon big girl get up," she lifted you to your feet. You were soaking wet and really cold. You looked down noticing a small puddle of water on the bathtubs surface. You looked around, you fell asleep in the bathroom?
You rubbed your head coughing.
"Come here," Nat put a towel over you and helped you out of the tub.
"Y-you're back?" You said. "Is Sam?"
She looked at you with sorry eyes. "I'm sorry sweetie he's still in D.C."
You knitted your eyebrows.
"Let's get you some dry clothes then." She put her arm around you and walked you slowly to your room.
You sat on the bed in complete shock, damp hair covering your eyes.
Nat got you some dry clothes and you changed into them. You sat in the kitchen with a cup of hot tea in your hands. Nat sat in front of you watching your every move.
It was dark outside, still night. You glanced at the microwave. 3am.
You took a sip of the tea.
"Nat?" You said in a hoarse voice.
"Yes?" Her eyes met yours.
"What happened to Sam?"
She looked to the side "He got into a fight. Well we all did, he just got hurt the most."
"Who were you fighting?"
"A very skilled soldier, it was our mission to," she paused looking to the side again. "To get information from him and he was a bit rough."
You took another sip of your tea, the hot liquid warming you from the inside.
"Will he be ok?" You asked.
"He's fine Y/N, don't worry. He's been out of surgery for the past hour." Nat answered.
"He'll be back tomorrow night."
"What was the injury?"
"Broken arm, couple of ribs and 28 stitches on his side."
"And he's alive?" You chuckled lightly shaking your head in disbelief.
"Believe it or not. I don't think he'd give up on you that easily Y/N." She smiled.
"Thank you." You said quietly. "By the way how'd you know I was um you know" you said referring to your panic attack.
"Actually Steve sent me, I came as soon as I could. Me, Vision and Rhodey actually landed a couple of hours ago."
"What about the rest?" You said.
"Stark stayed with Steve and Wilson and also-" she stopped suddenly.
You shook your head "What? And also?"
"And also Stark wants you to know that he's glad that he didn't invite you to the mission."
You furrowed your eyebrows "Ok?"
She let out a sigh.
