Costiño Series 11: Chaining the Heart (HANDSOMELY COMPLETED)

Kabanata 19

Kabanata 19

Never

"Is that bothering you?"

Tumango ako sa kanyang sinabi. At least, I am honest. Hindi kami pwedeng magsama kung maglilihim lang ako. Hindi ako ganoong babae. Hindi ako pinalaking ganoon ni Lola Bikay. My Lola taught me to be honest and be open with my problem. Kaya ang itago ang nararamdaman ko sa kanya ay hindi pwede. Hindi maaayos ang problema kung ganoon ang gagawin ng mag-asawa.

Marriage is very sacred. Once you settled with your love ones, you should be contented. You should be loyal and honest. Walang maidudulot na mabuti ang pagiging matago, pagiging palihim. Ang problema dapat pinag-uusapan yan upang naaayos pa. So, talking with him about my feelings making my heart better.

"My mother is kind. She's accommodating visitors and that's her personality. She can be nice to you, or be bad if you do something she doesn't like. But, she's a great mother. She spoiled us in a good way. She taught us to be responsible, to be better and to respect. Hindi sa kinausap niya si Shayla ibig sabihin ay gusto na niya ito. That's not like that, baby." he stopped.

Huminga ng malalim bago nagpatuloy.

"Kung ano ang gusto ko, suportado niya. Kung saan ako masaya, gusto niya. If you feel like she doesn't want you, well you are wrong. She likes you, Mywa. Simula ng sinabi ko sa kanya ang tungkol sayo, mas excited pa siya sa akin na makita ka. Every years, she will always ask me about you, and when is our wedding. Palagi niya akong pinipilit na puntahan ka, kausapin ka, at suyuin ka. Kaya alam kong gustong-gusto ka niya bilang asawa ko." he smile genuinely.

God, he's smile is making me giggling. Ang ganda talaga ng ngiti niya. Tapos sobrang gwapo pa ng mukha! Hays, full package na talaga ang lalaking ito kaya swerte ako sa kanya.

"Believe me, nagagalit siya kapag hindi ko sinusunod ang kagustuhan niyang puntahan ka. She really likes you, baby. Kaya wag mong isipin ng ganyan si mama. Mabait lang siya kaya kinakausap niya si Shayla pero walang ibig sabihin no'n. Kung ano ang mahal ko, mahal din niya." he end it.

I sighed heavily. Natamaan ako honestly. Hearing those words is making me ashamed. Imagine, I'm thinking about his mother in wrong perspective. I ruined the image of his mother in my mind. I'm so idiot for thinking it.

Well, hindi ko rin naman masisisi ang sarili kasi iyon naman talaga ang naiisip ko. I can't deny what I'm thinking and what I'm feeling. That's one of my trait and I have no choice but to accept it. First time kong kita kay mama (Braze mother) ramdam ko naman agad na mabait siya. She's very accommodating, and very very kind. Yung tipong kahit nagagalit, nawawala agad dahil sa kanya.

When she talk to me in the room before the wedding, I felt it. Her words felt in my heart. Sadyang nag-over thinking lang ako kaya naisip at nasabi ko 'yon. Pero tama si Braze, ganoon lang talaga si mama. At siguro kailangan ko na ring tanggalin sa isip at puso ang ganoong ugali at pag-iisip. I have to be a good daughter in law. I have to be responsible for my husband. I have to take care of my husband.

"I'm sorry for thinking your mother in a bad way. Sadyang nadala lang ako ng emosyon kanina. Sumabay ka pa kaya labis akong nakaramdam ng kabigatan sa dibdib." mahina kong sabi.

He sighed.

"It's fine. Ayoko lang na maririnig sunod na gusto mong magtrabaho sa ibang bansa. I will never let you do it. May pera ako, may negosyo ako, at kayang-kaya kitang buhayin." he said pointed.

Tumango ako at ngumuso. Bigla kong naisip ang tungkol sa pagtulog niya. Kulang pa ang naitulog niya kaya dapat bumalik siya sa kama at matulog.

"Antok ka pa, gusto mong bumalik sa paghiga?" tanong ko.