Can I just be alright for a little while?

5. Five rounds

Somehow I had managed to get into bed. Legs on the pillow and head hanging down over the edge, fucking uncomfortable, but here I was safe and sound. The world was spinning fast and pushing myself up felt like a mission impossible. I am never, ever gonna have another one night stand with Jack. Never. He helped me a lot during last night but he left me here with all this pain to deal with and I was not overly happy about it. Men. I rubbed my forehead and blinked my eyes few times to get used to the light coming in from the window. I saw my phone lying on the floor next to bed so I reached for it to see what time it was. 12:47PM.

"Shit..." I got myself up, ignoring the pain and bad feeling I had, and went to shower. I smelt terrible because of the alcohol and cigarettes, so I washed my hair and everything to get rid of that pathetic smell of self-hate.

Once I was shower fresh, I quickly dried my hair with the hairdryer and applied some makeup so I wouldn't look too hangovering. I left my hair open and went to put something on. As my favorite jeans were still smelling after whiskey, just like the shirt, I threw them into my laundry bag which I decided to take with me, I'd go to some local laundry to wash them. That left me with my black biker leggings and Nirvana t-shirt. After getting dressed I took just few sips of the mineral water, honestly I was scared to eat something solid because I knew it would come up soon. I then took my guitar and the laundry bag and made my way to my car.

At the parking lot I saw rather familiar guy chilling around my car. Aki. The fuck he wanted now?

"Heidi..." he started walking towards me as he noticed me. I rolled my eyes while groaning in frustration and stamping the ground beneath me, before I stopped few metres away from him.

"What do you want?" I asked and killed him few times with myeyes.

"Please... listen to me... "
"Why? Now all of sudden I am good enough for you again? Seriously, get the fuck away from me" I unlocked the doors and opened the boot to put my guitar and laundry in. Aki walked to me and I heard him taking a deep breath before he placed his hands on my waist from behind. My whole body got tense in that action. He still had the courage to touch me.

"Take your hands off from me" I mumbled between my teeth.

"Heidi, babe.. "
"Don't fucking Heidi babe me!" I pushed his hands down, turned around and pushed him away from me. The man put his hands into the pockets of his jeans and he looked the grey asphalt underneath his shoes. I closed the boot and went to the driver side. The man followed me there.

"I am sorry.. I don't know what got into me.. Vilma just.. "
"Vilma what? Don't try to put the blame on her, you created this mess equally. It is over, Aki. I don't want to see you here anymore" I opened the door and got into the car.

"But I love you.. Heidi.. I love you.. I shouldn't..."
"That shouldn't, wouldn't, couldn't is not gonna fix the problem. Have a nice life you fucking pathetic piece of shit" I closed the door and locked them from inside. Like my hangover wasn't already bad enough then he just managed to make it all even worse. I started the car and Aki had no other option than to step aside. What a shame. I would have enjoyed to poke him with my car a bit, you know, just to make him feel the pain I was feeling.

I arrived a little bit late to the band practice but the guys didn't seem to mind about it. We were still pretty much a garage band, even tho we had played together for five years, we still hadn't found any better place. Not that we were even actively searching. We had it all set up here at Ben's garage and we were always welcomed around so why even bother. This place was free for us to use.

"Rough night?" Jay asked while pulling me into hug. God how good it felt to feel someone close. Jay was a tall guy, 190cm and he had a pretty build up body. Not like too muscular but I enjoyed seeing him in his tank tops. He had snake bites, tattoos and blonde pompadour hair with taper fade sides and well trimmed beard. I had always had a sort of weakness for bearded guys, Aki was one too. But now I was just hoping that he'd cut a bit too deep while shaving.