Can I just be alright for a little while?

9. Life is not a Disney movie

The tears had no end. Vilma was the last person I wanted to see today, or like at all. And she had the courage to walk in to the salon and start that bullshit while I was having a customer who of course had to be fucking next door Hokka. Sobbing I pulled my phone out from my pocket ignoring the amount of question marks Alina had sent me and opened the chat with Jay.

Heidi: Can I see you before we go to Ben's?

Luckily he was online, guess he wasn't too busy working at the gym where he was a personal trainer.

Jay: Sure. Did something happen?

Heidi: Vilma..Fuck, Jay I am on the edge.. Literally.. I fucking can't..

As soon as I had pressed the send, Jay called and I picked up while full on crying onthe phone.

"H... ?" I heard the man's smooth, calming voice. It was funny how he could scream and growl like a demon but his speaking voice was so soft and calming.

"I fucking hate this all..." I cried and buried my head into my hands. I heard the man taking a deep breath.

"What happened?"he asked and I could hear he went into someone more quiet place because the gym noises from the background were gone and I could hear that he was alone in somewhere.

"Vilma showed up at my work... Started to apologize and stuff... meanwhile the guy next door was sitting on my chair getting his hair done.. Like can this get anymore worse? Why can't they just leave me alone?" I cried and reached into other pocket to take out one cigarette and the lighter. I placed the cigarette between my lips and lit it, after what I sucked everything I could from it before blowing it all into the air.

"Fuck... " Jay sighed.

"So you're at the work now?" he added and I nodded before realizing that he could not see that.

"Yeah.. " I consumed some more of the nicotine. And it started to rain now too. Even the weather was laughing at me.

"What time you finish?"

"I have two more clients coming... Some time around six I guess.. Fuck I don't wanna go back there... I mean.. It is so fucking weird that my neighbour already knows too much about the shit going on in my life..." I stood up and dumped the cigarette.

"I'll pick you up then" Jay said. I agreed to his offer and we ended the call. I took one more deep breath before going back in.

I went to put my jacket away and looked myself from the mirror. My makeup was little bit messed up so I had to fix my face before going to check Joel. Once I was done I walked back to the man and checked the colour.

"I guess we can go to wash it away" I said quietly and gestured him to the sink. He stood up and followed me there, and sat down. I placed the towel behind his neck and asked him to lean behind. This was not the thing I ever saw myself doing, washing his hair. For me it has always been sort of personal or even sensual moment. And it was definitely last on my list to do this to him.

"Just say if the water is too hot or too cold.." my tone was still rather quiet and I turned the water on. I tried to be as gentle as I could, he didn't need to suffer from my shitty mood. During the whole time I didn't say a word but neither did he. He knew that I was not in a mood of talking. I just focused my thoughts into his hair and doing good job.

Once I was done with washing Joel's hair, I pointed him back to the chair and it was my turn to follow him.

"Heidi..?" he looked at me before sitting down. I looked at him but I didn't stay a word.