I'm back, after a whole ass hiatus of 4 whole days, can you believe it? Anyways, enjoy the chapter.
As the day began to brighten, Link drove to a nearby gas station for gas. During our time there, he bought us two buckets of cookie dough ice cream, my favorite flavor. It wasn't the healthiest choice for a breakfast, but I didn't mind.
After we got back to the car, the silence continued. I was still too hurt to say anything, and he was running out of ways to comfort me(Or it was because hugging me again would be way too awkward). I took big chunks out of my ice cream, and stuffed them inside of my mouth, its coldness shivered within my mouth, but its sweetness made me happy. I felt a lot better now, but I still did not want to talk. I didn't know what to say, I was just not in the mood of pretending to feel fine.
...
"How about this Villa, you should write to your parents again tonight." He said, breaking the ice.
"I had tried before many times Link...what's gonna be so different this time?"
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"...I don't...know..." He said. "But, I don't want you to feel this way...I really don't. The best way I could help you is...well, write more letters."
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"What if it doesn't work..."
"Then you have me." He said, "I know how much it hurts Villager...Just so you know, You can always count on me...okay?"
It had been only a mere couple months since we first met, and he was treating me like his brother. Maybe this is why I love him so much. The thought of losing him one day...when he looks at me in disgust as my sexuality destroys our friendship...why did I have to be attracted to him...why can't we just be friends forever...
"I guess it wouldn't hurt..." I said, "to write one more letter."
"Yeah." He answered with bits of excitement. But I had no interest in continuing the conversation.
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"I'm really sorry about your sister Link, I really am."
"I knew you were, I knew your sincerity, I was too angry at myself, you did nothing wrong. I was a bad friend. I don't deserve you..."
"I can tell how much you love your sister." I said, "I understand how my meatless persuasion angered you...in your shoes, it would have probably angered me too..."
"I have no excuse for the way I spoke." He said, "But since you have forgiven me, I won't bother you with more apologies."
"I don't believe in anything, but I pray from the depth of my heart." I looked down, "Whoever you believe in, they will surely shed luck upon your sister."
"I can only hope," he closed his eyes and held his hands close. "Today is just...awful..."
He pushed his head onto the steering wheel, and continued the silence.
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We were in another stalemate, he didn't know what to say, and I didn't know what to say. Good thing no one was waiting behind us to get their gas filled, we have been here for over 15 minutes.
"Well, for now at least, let's get our minds off to some other things." Toon Link said while kicking up the car. He knew sitting here was gonna get us nowhere. "We have a schedule ahead of us, maybe a little surfing can ease both of us up a bit. We will figure something out tonight, for your parents."
We drove out of the gas station, and onto the road. Link turned on some tropical-sounding music, I'm guessing it's native music from his home. I stared out at the windshield the entire time, and Link was looking at me once in a while. I know in fact that he was still concerned. Our car took the same highway as last time, the bushes, the trees, but it just wasn't the same anymore.
After arriving at the beach, I reminded myself to be extra content and interested. Link told me to get out and unload the things we need, but when I offered to carry anything, he refused.
We made it to just meters away from the water, and that's where he threw everything on the ground.
"Eh, we missed the sunrise." He said. "Don't worry, the sun doesn't go away. We'll just have to pick another time."
"I'm sorry. For wasting that much time..."
"You didn't waste anything Villa, the fault was on my part." He said while sighing. "I've made a-"
"Alright, you can start teaching me now." I interrupted his next apology, and pushed a smile at him. It still wasn't genuine, but it sure made TL happy.
"Alright." He said. Link then took his T-shirt over his head and threw it onto our pile of things. Oh boy, oh boy. This wasn't good, and me staring deep into his chest did not help at all. I couldn't help it, my eyes were superglued. The next thing I was gonna do was start drooling, and that's no good.
Link did not say anything, as soon as I took my glance off his body and back onto him, he raised an eyebrow.
"Villa?"
"Y-yes?" I was about to die from embarrassment.
"I've been wondering about something if you don't mind me asking."
"..."
"Are you gay?"
"Oh Ummmm."
What do I say? Do I lie, or do I tell the truth? No, i can't lie. It's too late to lie. Im visibly shaking and sweating...no straight person would act like this when questioned about their sexuality. I spilled my guts, what's the worst that could happen, if he really is your friend, he wouldn't get mad because of it, would he? He wouldn't, TL wouldn't, but what if he...
"Maybe," I said from the corner of my mouth. As soon as I said it, I regretted it to no end. At that point, I really wanted to stuff myself inside a miniature cube and never come out. I'm done for, I always knew this day was coming, but I never could have imagined it to be today.
"So is that a yes?"
"..."
"I have another question for you."
"..."
"Do you have a crush on me?"
"..."
I looked at him, my face was bright pink, he knew what the answer was, it was way too obvious. I wonder what it feels like, to commit your soul into a friendship, just for the other to drool all over you. The more I thought about it, the more down I felt, and eventually, I burst into tears, again.
"All I wanted was a b-best friend, like y-you. I-I can stop with this. I'll ch-change. I really still wanna be fri-fr-friends Toon Link. I can't help it, I was born with this. I can change...I know there are conversion therapies out there..." I said while sobbing, my tears rolled down my cheeks, and onto my naked foot. The feeling stabbed me like a knife, I felt relieved to finally be free from my secret, but...but. "I'm sorry..."
He stared at me wide-eyed, his mouth twitching a little, but he was still expressionless. What have I done?
I had lost my best friend.
I closed my eyes, and thought of all the happy memories I had with him, the first day we met, the days he waited for me each morning. It's gone, all gone. Just because I'm gay. My eyes were closed, but I could make out the expression on his face, disgusted, maybe even angry. Why...Why am I like this? Why-
"Mhm?" My crying and moaning came to a halt, I couldn't speak. What was going on? That's when I felt lips pressed onto mine, hands caressed my cheek, and brushed over my streaming tears. I opened my eyes, im-impossible-
He pressed down even further, now into my mouth, and that's when he reaches my tongue. He pushed past my teeth and ventured deeper inside. I felt my tongue moving in a synchronized movement, controlled by another dominant being inside of me. It was him, my best friend.
After a minute or two, we broke away, We stared deeply into each other. He smiled, wrapped me by the shoulders, and said the five words that only belonged in dreams.
"I love you too Villa."
And yeah, that's when I knew that our friendship officially ended, crushed, discombobulated, and thrown into a hole. It was the past.
Toonie and Villa were the present.
