Sitio Series 3: Scheming List

Chapter 53

Period

I pinched his cheeks, Gremory frowned on his sleep. Still at the same sheet covering only our bodies while making his arm as my pillow I continued to examine his face.

Aside from having a bad eyes sight Gremory is still gifted with his face long thick eye lashes, pointed nose, porcelain skin, natural red lips and even his brain. I hope my baby will inherit this features of him however not his attitude nor mindset.

“Hmm..” He made a noise. “S..Sleep more,” his voice was husky. Gremory gently held my hand punching his cheeks and still with his close eyes he  began to shower it smooches. Staring at him I felt something on my chest, like a small flower slowly blooming it's beauty.

Flustered, I managed to take it away. “Is this really okay?” I asked myself.

Gremory opened his eyes that were full of confusion. “What?”

I flashed a sad smile, I'm okay with this set up but somehow my conscience couldn't bear the fact that we're only doing this for trivial matters. “We talked, yes we tackled about the past issues but Gremory hindi pa tayo okay..” His red lips parted by my realization, “walang taong okay sa isang gabi lang. Sabi mo nga nag-umpisa tayo sa maling paraan.. Tinuloy-tuloy natin dahil akala nating dalawa ayos lang kasi bata pa tayo noon pero ngayon, mali eh. This baby on my womb doesn't deserve to be born because of consideration not the reason we both wanted it nor love each other.. It was long list of years and suddenly we met again but those scars from the past wasn't really healed.. We just agreed about the contract.. Gremory uulitin ba na naman ang set up noon?”

Silence filled the room, I can hear our beating hearts. He's not dumb not to understand what I'm saying he even pulled schemes as far as I know off.

Unexpectedly, Gremory held my hand again that was placed on his cheeks then on a swift moment he gave them a soft kisses. “I won't argue anymore,” tinanggal nito ang buhok kong tinatabunan ang aking mukha at inilagay sa gilid ng tenga. “I’ve come this far all I wanted is true genuine feelings from the person I wanted.”

Hindi ko tinanggal ang pagkakatitig sakanya. “Just think of some scenarios. If we continue being with each other without any proper closure about the things hurted us nothing will work out. Konting away lang o tampo dadating at dadating tayo sa puntong mapupuno tayo at basta nalang iiwan ang isa’t isa. They said forgiving is necessary to move on and what we're doing right now is running away, trying to pretend to move on even though the truth we're afraid that one of us might actually leave because of the past... Think about what happens if our baby will be born and still didn't fixed everything. They might mock him for being born with outmost consideration that his father and mother are nothing to each other just united by a sudden pregnancy.. I don't want that..  I don't want our grudges kept on hunting us on the future...” Ani ko.

I don't want unclear ending that everything is done but still has lingering hatred.

A cold person I knew disappeared all of a sudden, maybe this is what they say that no matter how much you knew about the person there's still things you don't know. “How about annulment?” My eyes widened for Gremory to bring it up first.. “Alam kong ako ang may pakana kung bakit tayo ikinasal sa maikling panahon na lingid sa kaalaman mo.. And now you want to come clean to continue without any stain this is all I can do for you,” a lone tear fell from my eye. “I also want to be a better person for you Dorothy.. Para sa iyo, ikaw lang ang dahilan at kahit gaano man katagal akong maghihintay o maghabol ayos lang... Kahit paulit-ulit na para bang nasa isang laro, kakayanin ko. Dahil ikaw lang, ikaw lang ang mahal ko..” That smile... Not a smile full of pretension but a kind of smile that felt so warm.