All that I Want

Space

I lean against the door, taking deep breaths as tears stream down my face. The knob turns next to my hand but the lock keeps it in place.
"Can we talk about this?" Chase's muffled voice comes through the door. "Please?"
I ignore him, trying to calm down.
"I know you can hear me, y/n. Please, let's just talk this out."
I stay quiet, wishing he'd just give me space.
"I'm sorry," his voice cracks slightly, "I'm so sorry. I didn't think you'd want to go."
"I need space," I whisper, knowing damn well he can hear me. I feel the door shift behind me with new weight on it.
"How much?" He asks.
"Just space," I try to stop my voice from cracking.
I hear him sigh, it's a few seconds before he finally speaks, "okay... I'm sorry." I listen to him slowly walk away, the creaking of the porch marking each step of his until it goes quiet.
"What is wrong with me?" I ask myself as I slide down to the floor. I've been dreaming about being his girlfriend for two years, and I probably screwed it up in less than two minutes.
I get up and walk upstairs to my room. I glance out my window to see if I could see Chase in his bedroom, but he's laying on his bed talking to someone on the phone.
"So we fight and you go call someone else?" I scoff before closing my curtains so he can't spy on me.

***

"Y/n, time for dinner!" My mom yells up the stairs.
I walk down to the dining room where she's setting the plates.
"Did you want to invite Chase over?" She asks.
"No!" I say too quickly, receiving a funny look from her. "I just... can't deal with him right now."
"Okay..."
As we start digging into our plates I ask, "would it be okay if I didn't go to school for the rest of the week?"
"I" she starts, but my dad cuts her off.
"Of course, sweetie."
My mom glares at him but he doesn't waiver. "It's only the third week of school, you won't miss much," he shrugs.
"Thank you," I say sincerely before going back to eating in silence.
The rest of dinner goes filled with silence.

***

I lay in my bed trying to figure out why I snapped at him. Yeah, I was irritated that he didn't ask me to homecoming, but it had to have been something more than that, didn't it?
I check my phone to see the only notification I have is a text from Gwen.

Gwen
Hey! What happened to you today?

Me
I went home at lunch. I snapped at Chase and now I don't know what we are?

Gwen
What happened??

Me
There's been so many homecoming proposals going on, ya know? And whenever him and I walked past one he'd just comment that it was lame or cheesy. He doesn't even seem interested in going to homecoming with me... so I decided to leave school early and he ended up leaving early too to find me because I wasn't answering him and he found out that I was walking home. Then I snapped at him about the dance and told him to give me space...

Gwen
Damn. What did he say when you snapped at him?

Me
He said that we agreed freshman year that school dances were stupid

Gwen
But that was three years ago?

Me
That's what I said! But we had also agreed at the same time that parties were stupid and he said that we tried a party and decided not to go to anymore afterwards so why would we even attempt going to the dance

Gwen
He didn't!

Me
He did. And now I don't even know if we're still together because he hasn't even attempted to message me.

Gwen
Well you did tell him to give you space...

Me
It was out of spite! I didn't mean it

Gwen
Give him tonight, if he contacts you tomorrow you'll know that he's not mad at you and you're still together

Me
Yeah, I guess you're right