All that I Want

Silent Sobs

I wake to Chase shaking my shoulder saying, "hey, y/n, it's just a dream. You're okay, wake up."
I sit up and tears continue streaming down my face as I try to wipe them away faster than they can fall.
"Hey, hey, are you okay?" Chase uses the pads of his thumbs to wipe the tears away.
I crush him in the tightest hug I can, not being able to explain just yet why I'm crying. I silently sob into his chest as he rubs soothing circles up and down my back. It takes me several minutes to calm down, but he doesn't push the matter until I'm ready.
I take a few deep breaths before finally saying, "in my dream you were getting ready to leave for your tour and... and you broke up with me," my voice cracks at the end. "You told me that you were never coming back home, that you were moving to New York and you didn't want me to follow you."
The tears start again and I bury my head in his chest as I pray that it doesn't come true. I can't lose him, not now. Not when we've only just started dating. Maybe not ever.
He squeezes me to him and I can feel something wet falling into my hair, and I know he's crying too.
"I won't," his voice cracks, "I could never do that to you, y/n. You're my everything. I don't know what I'd do without you in my life, I can't even imagine it without you in it."
"I don't think I could handle you walking out of my life and never coming back," I breath into his chest.
He nods his head knowingly, "you don't have to worry about that, baby."
I pull his face down to mine and kiss him passionately, hoping what he says is true.