Poetries & Stories

Unappreciated [English]

How happy would I be
if my parents loved me?

"Child, are you taking care of yourself, huh?"

"Child, always remember we love you."

How sad
if my parents get disappointed and worried?

"Be careful next time, okay?"

"Don't do that again."

And how would I feel if
my parents did the same?
Love starts at home. 
Ridiculous, why do I feel alone?

"Mama, Papa, I'm home."

"Ma? Pa?"

Pain stabs in my heart.
Why can't I get their attention?
I tried my best, did I?

until I accidentally broke the glass.

"Stupid! Get your ass out of here! "

"Useless person! You better die, bitch! "

My heart exploded.
My eyes sting
as I hear their words in
my innocent ears.

Realization hits me
they noticed me when I had made a mistake,
until I can't count how many I've made
just to get their attention and I really succeeded.

"What have you done?"

"Such a worthless way to waste time."

What did I do?
For them to get so mad at this so badly?
What did I do?
When all I really need is their love
What did I do? 
I feel this pain every second, every minute.
What will I do?

 For them to love me back and to cover up this aching pain,

"YOU.ARE.A.MISTAKE!"

Don't I deserve their love?
Don't I deserve happiness?
Am I that bad?
Don't I really deserve it?

"Mama, Papa, did you love me once?"

"Not even a single minute"

They saw me smile during the day,
but they didn't know that at night I slowly killed my body.
They heard me laugh during the day, but they didn't know that at night I cried until it was bloody.

"Ma, Pa, when will you love me?"

"No plan for that."

"Ma, Pa, what's your wish?"

"Will you grant it as I say?"

Death is a mistake. I made a mistake, they say,
so I tried

I smiled as I heard their screams, louds and cries, "Wake up, sweetie," and "We love you."
 
My smile faded.
As my heart melted,
Why is everybody starting to care when it's too late already?
Why does everybody express their love when it's too late to feel it?
Why does everybody appreciate you when you're already gone?

You are so lucky if you still embrace your loved ones, so I tell you guys, appreciate them, let them feel loved, take care of them, create memories with them, and love them with all your heart. Value their presence because one of the reasons for staying alive is your family, who will give you strength and motivation in your daily life. So I challenge you to prove this quote that "Love starts at home". Do it before it's too late.