Poetries & Stories

You Matter [English]

; YOU MATTER

Over the past years being with him is beyond ecstasy, my life lits up and it really really feels heaven. My life feels so complete and without him I can say that I missed the half of my life. He makes me feel so special, a princess and a partner in his life. Sadly, we aren't a lover nor M.U. We are just plainly friends, it hurts, yeah, but it's the truth.

2 months after...
👧: I love you
👨: I don't know what to say, but maybe through this I can express.
👧: We are friends for more than years, no one did ever separate us. We already know each other so tell me why can't you love me?
👨: Love, four letters but the root of everything. They say it's the most wonderful feeling for us individual can have. There's a positive and negative feedbacks about love, so love is really complicated, and I believe in the saying "True love waits" and "Good things come for those who waits".
👧: But you know?! You knew that I love you right?
👨: You are the most amazing girl I've ever met in my life and a girl like you should treasure the most.
👧: It hurts when you smile at other girls. It makes me feel jealous when you give your attention to them. I want you for myself badly but the truth slaps me. I don't own you, so I don't even have the rights.
👨: Be yourself. Be confident. And be you again. It's not right and it's not wrong also to feel insecure but we should know our limits. We can't control our emotions in our young age because we are young and reckless and thirst of attention.In what you did you impress me because you know where you stand, and I just said to myself, this is really the right one.
👧: I really love you since. I can't help to because you are the one who supports me, take cares of me, never left by my side and the one who makes me feel of being loved. I am just a weak girl who dream for this and I am sorry if I love you more than just a friend. I'm sorry because of this feelings of mine.
👨: Mine too is really complicated to the point I don't know what to say. I can say that I'm already here but it's not. I hope you understand that I can't match your feelings.
👧: I'm sorry. I'm sorry. Please don't let our friendship broke.
👨: Please? Don't cry. You know that I hate it seeing you cry. And sorry because I think we just broke our friendship. I'm sorry because I can't keep your promise.

I cried. Real hard.

Not because of what he said but because of my realizations in our conversation.

He really never fails to amaze me

And it makes me fall for him even more

I cried,because of my realizations

Real hard, because the feelings are mutual

👧: Yes! Yes, I will!
👨: It's only you, I just confirmed it by now. After everything we made through, you matter. You only matter.

Our friendship broke, but it will still remain, because we just step to another level of relationship and that is us being a lover. Friendship is our beginning and I think being in a relationship is our next part.

Curious why I answered yes when he didn't even questioned me? Well, read all his first lines.

I
Love
You
Be
Mine
Please?

And I think you already know.

👨: I love you
👧: I love you too