“Mama, I got an 89 in our first quarter." Aren't you proud of me? ”
“Proud? I'll be proud of you if you make it to 95! ”
“ 'Ma, I was picked to represent a contest.”
“Back out! That is just a waste of money. ”
“Tomorrow is the homeroom PTA meeting. You should at least attend 'Ma or else I will be marked as absent.”
“Tell your teacher that I am busy!”
“Ma, I have good news!”
“What is it?”
“I got 93!”
“What? 95, I said!You should study more! ”
“Hey! What a loser, still second eh? ”
“Wait 'til I replace your place. I am the best! "”
“Dream on, girl!”
“M-mama, I got 90”
“Don't talk to me dumb, unless you've got 95.”
“You lose weight.”
“Your face looks so tired.”
“Any updates?”
“I studied so well 'Ma, don't worry, I did my best.”
“'Ma, we have an outing with my classmates. Can I go with them? ”
“You? Study. ”
“Mama, why can't you be proud of me?”
“I don't have a failed daughter.”
“But I did my best.”
“And your best is not enough.”
“Be the top one in your class, then I will be proud of you.”
“You understand? You should always study. Study. Study. Study. ”
“Boost your confidence, dumb! Don't degrade our family's name! ”
“Ma, I'm tired. Please wake up! I am not a fuckin' robot! I am tired! ”
I'm tired of proving that I am the best
I'm tired of being your slave.
I'm tired of my daily life.
I'm tired of all this shit.
I'm tired because I am a human too.
And today, as I go to school with my eyebags, dark circles, and tired body, I still manage to smile. My spirit is willing to attend class, but my flesh overpowers me. And with every step I take, many unfinished thoughts clutter my mind. Depression, as they commonly say, you don't understand until you yourself suffer from it. Anxiety and demands.
What my mother demands makes me a victim of depression and anxiety. Added by the judgements of society.
I smile. I laughed.
But deep within, I'm thinking of taking my own life.
As I realised from the very first start, our generation today doesn't go to school for us to learn.
School is now all about passing, and not learning.
BINABASA MO ANG
Poetries & Stories
Mystery / ThrillerP O E M S / P O E T R Y / SHORT STORIES Hello! This book is a compilation of poems, poetry, and short stories. The languages used are Filipino and English. The dialect used is Cebuano. Thank you so much for reading this! Thank you, Canva, for the...
