Poetries & Stories

Distance [English]

I opened my account to check if my girlfriend had messaged me, but there was no one. It's been hours since this happened and this is unusual compared to last month. She becomes busy with her schoolwork, but I understand it. It's for her future anyway, and I already miss her.

Guess what? We are having a long-distance relationship and today is our 5th month anniversary.

9:10pm

Kenshin: Hi baby! Happy 5th month of love: You have become inactive lately, but I still love you so much and you are worth the wait because I am handsome. I'm just kiddin' baby. Always take care of yourself and don't forget that you have a boyfriend. Nala, I miss you already. I miss your I love you and kisses. Please be active now because I can't wait to have a video call with you.

After an hour, my mood lit up as I saw the green circle beside her beautiful name. I immediately click on our conversation and wait for her reply. I could feel the excitement and my heart beat fast as I saw the 3 dots.

10:56pm

Nala: Kenshin

My expectations lead to disappointment and I feel uneasy because we have not had a first-name basis since we started our relationship. I did not reply and waited for her further message.

10:58pm

Nala: Let's break up. I'm tired of this kind of relationship.

For a minute, I was stunned and couldn't move. I reviewed her message and what the fuck is going on?

11:04 pm

Kenshin: Don't you remember that today is our fucking 5th month anniversary, Nala?

Nala: I know, but not all things work out just like our relationship, Ken. When I fall out of love, this is not enough for me, and this long distance relationship doesn't give me satisfaction either. I want the truth.

11:07pm

Kenshin: Aren't we real? Fuck. Did you really love me, Nala? Is your love for me true?

I didn't notice that I was crying; my heart broke and I couldn't speak. How come she easily said that? Didn't she think of my feelings? Fuck. Her love for me is not enough and I am not fuckin' enough.

11:09pm

Nala: Ken, I do, but don't you know that as the distance increases, the force of attraction decreases? That's me right now. I can't handle our relationship, so my love for you decreases. I am sorry if I am not strong enough to fight for this relationship. I'm sorry. I know what you feel, but I don't have anything to do about that. Are we already at this point? We cannot just stop it. I'm sorry.

Distance is not a valid reason. If you truly love someone, you understand the situation and let distance test you on how you truly love me and how loyal you are. You chose to let go and didn't fight for your love, for us. How selfish are you to leave me miserable and broken?

11:11pm

But Nala, love is not related to science, it's just an excuse because you found another man. Love is not measured by distance. Simply, your love for me is not enough and not worth the fight.

As I clicked the arrow to send my message, "you can't reply to this conversation" popped on my screen. I hopelessly closed my eyes and let my tears fall.

Oh, how life is complicated.