Hamilton Oneshots (2)

Author's Note

Don't worry, I wrote a oneshot that I will publish right after this note goes up to make up for the update being an a/n.

Anyway, if anybody is still reading these or waiting for updates please know I am trying and I will continue writing oneshots into the distant future, as long as people want them. I haven't updated this in over a year and I can't promise that oneshots will be consistent but I am still writing in here when I want to. It just gets harder to find time for hobbies once you become an adult. If you were here in the early days you might giggle at that since I used to do three updates a day with one thousand or more words in each. I started these oneshots in 2017 when I was 16, it's now 2021 and I am now 20. I went from a sophomore in high school to a sophomore in college!

My Hamilton books are so important to me, I'm going to be a history teacher actually, and maybe it's because I enjoyed the research I did for some of these stories. My life is changing a lot, I'm going to be moving out of my family's house next year, I got my first job earlier this year, in a few months I'm going to be 21. At this point, hobbies have become a side gig, and when I do find time I don't want to do them either because I know I could be doing something else, like writing a paper or studying. But like I said, these oneshots will continue as long as people want them because they hold a lot of sentimental value to me. Even if updates are extremely far apart.

These books sort of helped me vent my emotional frustrations, especially in the first oneshot book. I remember writing oneshots on here in the hospital after my appendix burst, when I got home from a psychiatric facility, and after other traumatic instances that I won't go into. It's so stupid to say but Hamilton oneshots might very well have saved my life because they gave me something to do that people enjoyed and praised me for. They made me feel like people wanted me here even if it was just to write. I was getting requests and thank you's for existing. It was so important for 16-year-old me to feel this sense of being needed so to anybody who is reading this, thank you so much. Thank you for making a lonely teenager feel like they had a community that loved them. These four books were my escape when my life felt like it was falling apart and everybody who read my books was a part of the only place I felt happy. You helped me escape, you helped me feel needed, you helped me find happiness, you may have saved me.

I always end up deleting my author's notes but this one will probably stay up for a bit. Hopefully, it's not cringe.