Hamilton Oneshots (2)

What He Had (Elizette)

Requested by kawaii_Potato_101

Laf took a swig of his alcohol once more, this had become a daily thing for him. Every night he wound up at a bar with shots or bottles in hand. It wasn't always like this, he used to sleep peacefully at midnight, not run his hands through his hair as it got messier and messier. Just a year ago he used to have the love of his life in his arms as he breathed in her scent.

Elizabeth Schuyler, his love. She always seemed to be with him, she came back when they argued, she never left. Laf took advantage of that, how could he do that? He took advantage of the fact that Eliza loved him too much to leave him.

They say you never really know what you have until it's gone. The sad thing is he knew what he had he just never expected it to be, well...gone. Eliza, no matter what anybody said, was a strong woman. People associated her with innocence, weakness, and maybe even desperation, but she was strong. Eventually, she told him off. It was such a surprise people didn't even think it was true when he first told them. They thought he was hiding something but no, Eliza had cornered him in a room, told him he was a piece of shit, and then left.

Laf sighed and took another shot, he had nobody to blame but himself. He had ignored her, insulted her, and expected her to always love him. It had been over four months now but he still loved her, he would always love her. All he had were his memories though. He couldn't really remember most of the happy ones though, especially when he had been drinking.

One of his memories though, the only happy one he could remember right now. Let's see...Eliza sat in the rocking chair inside the living room, her new embroidery project in her hands. Laf walked in and she looked up with her award-winning smile, "How was work?" She asked, her voice lifted.

Laf sat in his chair and sighed, "Well it was okay I guess." He told her before grinning, "But what I really want to do is spend time with you!" He glanced at her hands, "Hey what's that for-or who I mean?"

Eliza looked at it before smiling, "O-Oh well..." She moved the stick-thingies that Laf never understood to continue it, "Well see it-um well Alexander...he got a promotion so I er..." She stared at her hands, "I was making this..."

Laf raised an eyebrow, "Hamilton?" His smile dropped, "Really? Hamilton? You're making a fucking blanket for the guy who you were courting not even a year ago? How the 'ell am I supposed to feel about that?"

Oh, wait...this was another argument.

How could he only argue with her?! He put his face on the bar again, he didn't even let her explain on that day either. Eliza was too innocent sometimes, she just wanted to make it to encourage Alexander to reach the dreams he had spent his entire life trying to get. She just wanted him to be happy.

Laf rubbed his face, "Laf..?" He snapped and spun around, there stood Eliza. What? How? He was in a bar, Eliza didn't go to bars. What's happening? "H-Hercules said I could...Herc said I could find you here." She rubbed her arm, "C-Can we leave...this place it-it makes me nervous..."

Laf nodded, "Y-Yeah! Yes!" He tripped off of his seat and almost fell, heading outside with Eliza trailing after. Her head hung low and he panicked, "Is something wrong? What's wrong? Did I do something wrong again?"

Eliza shook her head, "No...No that's not it." She took a deep breath and looked away, "You're not sober...I don't think this is the right time..." Eliza closed her eyes and groaned, "Laf th-I'm sorry I..." She rubbed her face.

"N-No I'm not...not too bad," Laf told her quickly and reached to grab her hands but stopped himself instantly when he realized his mistake. He looked away, "Oh...okay I-I'll remember! I only had like...five drinks."

Eliza raised an eyebrow, "Five...okay..." She dropped her eyes for a moment, "Can you...I-I don't want to-to say it. Can you just look?" She asked quietly and he nodded, he'd do anything for her. Honestly the fact that Eliza was in front of him was literally a miracle.

Eliza put her hands behind her back before pulling her dress tight against her body. Laf took a moment before realizing there was a small bump over her stomach, "You're...You are pregnant?" He asked quietly.

Eliza nodded and dropped her gaze, "I um...I found out yesterday. I've been trying t-to find you since yesterday morning but you're really hard to track down so I went to...Alex who pointed me to Hercules and now I'm here." She dropped her hands, wiggling a little the dress going back to perfectly hiding the small bump.

Laf tried to grasp what was happening, "Mine..?" He couldn't ask a real question and began gaping. He was going to be a father? To Eliza's child?! He watched her raise her hand up and wipe her tears, instantly he approached her and pulled her to his chest, "Eliza I'm...I'm so s-sorry. Please don't cry..."

She shook her head, "I-I...I..." She hiccuped, "I n-never wanted t-to leave you..." She admitted as she burst into tears. Laf looked over her head as tears slid down his cheeks, she hadn't? "I love you b-but I'm sick of this. I'm sick of it!" He held her tighter, "And I don't know if I...I don't know if I want to go back to you...but I-I can't hold you away from your child..."

He nodded, "I'm...I-I'm aware of you-of that. Of all of that, Eliza." He closed his eyes, "And I-I won't suggest it. I promise I won't I just...want you in my life, 'owever, I can and I want this child too. So...So I...So I will do whatever I can and maybe...eventually you can...love me again. Or-Or see I've changed? But it's your choice..."

Eliza nodded and pulled back, "Here's my new address..." She handed him a blue envelope with a sticker on it to hold it closed, "Write me soon..I-I have to go see Angelica about this." She gave him one last longing look before leaving.

Laf sighed as he watched her leave, her skirt fluttering around. He always seemed to be watching her leave, but what could he do? It was his fault, after all. He just hoped she'd come back soon.