Sarah Paulson One Shots

Her Little Angel ~B.DH

Request- Richgirlgx01

                 Billie comes over (as mother's friend.) finds out about readers insecurities of being skinny in attempts at easing them.

TW-  weight slander, panic attack
  
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     Today started with staggered breath and tears threatening to stream down your rosy cheeks as you stand in the mirror frozen. Your eyes trail down your small frame.

    Skin and Bone. Why dont you eat? Eat a cheeseburger for once, you stick. Those were all things you've heard throughout the years from countless people. Your weight wasnt your fault. It was difficult for your body to put on a pound or two. You just didnt function like that no matter how hard you tried or how many doctors you went to.

    You had come to terms that either no one could or wanted to help you. Except one person. One woman who was always your light in these times...

    Billie Dean Howard. A friend to your mother, but a second parent to you. A better one in fact. Your mother had invited Billie over for dinner tonight and you were excited.

    Yet as the clock ticked closer to Billies arrival, a gut feeling of anxiety took you down with it. The blonde hadn't seen you for two years due to her filming schedule. She wasnt there to know what you had been going through now.

    Billie was always the motherly figure in your life, since the day you were born the woman swore to keep you close to her heart.
"Safe and sound, my angel." She kissed the top of your infant head that day.

    Now, as years go by, the medium's fame grew, the further apart you became. But that was to change tonight.

     A ring of the doorbell and a call of your name by your mom, your tears had suddenly vanished with a swipe of your palm. Putting on a pitty smile you walked down stairs trying not to cry again. "Theres my angel" an all  well known voice called out from the bottom of the stairwell.

     Jumping into the blondes arms she wrapped you up tight in her limbs as if it was the last time she was going to see you. "Hi babydoll." Billie whispered into the top of your head. "I missed you so much." Nuzzling your head deeper into her chest Billie lifted your head up with her fingertips hooked under your chin. "I'm here now sweetie."

   "Ahem"  A loud 'cough' from your mother watching this greeting go down she stands with her hip resting on the counter and a glass of wine in hand.Billie gives you a sad smile and lets you go from her grip.

    The women carry on conversation about work and how Billies filming is going. The usual catch up, but with that talk always involves talking about kids. "I just don't understand what is wrong with her, Billie. My daughter is a stick." Your mother complains pouring at least her third glass of wine.

    You over hear this comment from the other side of the kitchen. Your hands grip the hem of your skirt and staggering breaths somehow make their way out of your body. You don't know this, but Billie draws her attention to you noticing how shaky and uncomfortable you've become.

    "I feed her I swear. I think she does this on purpose." Your mom takes another swig of her glass setting it down on the counter. This was your last straw. Breathing was becoming a chore, your hands couldn't stay still.

    You got up from the chair you had been sitting in, hurrying to the nearest room away from people which in this case was the comfort of your bedroom.

    "Do you see what I mean? Shes an attention seeker." Your mom watched you run off without a care in the world. Billie rolled her eyes at the woman's comment. She knew what your body language was speaking and it wasnt for attention.

     "Excuse me." The blonde said giving the other woman a side glare as she lifted herself out of the barstool.  Billies eyes had followed you when you left which had led her to your bedroom door. She placed a delicate knock. "Babydoll, its Billie..are you alright?"

    You had found yourself on the floor with your knees close to your chest and tears running down your reddened cheeks. Your eyes grew wide at the voice on the other side of the room. "Can I come in?" She spoke again. You picked your body up off the floor slowly inching to the door turning the knob, opening up to a worry eyed, warm smile from the one person who always seemed to care.

     Billie walked in closing the door behind her, before bringing you close into her embrace. "Its alright. I'm here now sweetie." Her hand brushed through the back of your hair as you let it all out sobbing into her shoulder blade.  "I'm so tired." Was all you managed to audibly get out. "I know angel, I know."

    Billie moved the both of you to your bed sitting on the edge with a hand on your knee. "Its not like what she says. I don't do this for the attention. In fact, rather people not look at me at all." You wiped the leftover tears from your face. "I know you don't. I know that's not something you would do." The blonde took your hand in hers rubbing her thumb over your knuckles.

    "I cant gain weight like normal people, no matter how much I eat. I feel sick when I look at myself and my mom isnt helping she has too many opinions and theories about me rather then asking me how I feel-"  Billie hushed you as you were on the brink of tears just talking about it.

    "Darling, you've been smaller since you were a baby. It's how you were born and that's normal. I know plenty of beautiful people who are just like you." The older woman brought you back into her chest kissing the top of your head. "You're not sick, you're not gross, and you don't need to change for that woman downstairs. Understood?" You nodded your head.

    "I thought you were friends with her." You asked raising an eyebrow suprised that Billie wasnt taking your mom's side in all of this. "That's what she thinks. I only come here for my little angel." Billie pecked your nose lightly before giving you a goofy smile and scrunching her nose. "Thank you Billie." You hugged her one more time. "Anytime Y/N. Love you."

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A/N- POV: you didnt reread, sorry for any mistakes. <3