Little Badass

Chapter 82 - Don't Talk

Hi everyone. Usually I don't put warnings on my chapters because it's already on the description of this book but I just think it's right for this chapter.

Chapter will contain: self-harming, suicide, etc.

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Song: Antarctica
Artist: $uicideboy$

Ash's POV:

"Ash!"

"Ash wake up!"

"Ash! Wake up!"

I opened my eyes and looked around. It was still dark outside. I turned over and laid on my back. I looked up at the ceiling and let out a long sigh. This whole month I've had a dream about me finally being able to kill myself......but everyone is trying to get me to wake up. It's always the same.

I do it in the tub and Roman is always the one to find me. Tyler is always with him and he runs to go tell Kevin and the nurse. Roman takes me out of the tub and then puts me on the floor. He cries for me to wake up. And somehow everyone else shows up and begin to cry. Telling me that I have to wake up. Janet and Dylan are there too. And then I see a glowing figure right next to Janet and once I try to see who it is I wake up.

I sat up when I heard a knock at the door. I put a hoodie over my sports bra and I opened the door. That's when I seen Roman.

"Hey, sorry I had to wake you so early."

"It's fine I was already awake."

"Oh, okay then. Well I wanted to see if you had time to talk," he frowned.

"Yeah sure. Let me put on my shoes. Come in," I said.

I opened the door more to let him in. I went into my closet and got my pair of checkerboard slip-ons. Once I did that I walked out my closet and closed it.

"You could've turned on the light," I said.

"No it's fine. I don't want my eyes to hurt."

"That's true. Well....let's go."

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We ended up going to the greenhouse. It's crazy how Grayson showed me this place but now it's mine and Roman's place. We come here to draw and talk. And it surprises me that I never see Grayson up here. Being the person that he is I expected him to have Rebecca up here naked with him. But I guess he's grown out of that and knows to give me a free space from him.

"So what's up?" I asked.

"Well...I was talking to Grayson earlier and..."

"No Roman. He isn't someone I want to talk about anymore. I'm with someone else now. I'm happy with someone else."

"If you were happy then why hold on to that drawing?"

"Is that what this is all about? If that's the issue then I'll give it to him right now."

"No Ash..."

I got up and stormed off. I got to my floor and walked through the halls. I got to my door and opened it and turned on the lights. I grabbed the picture and went across the hall. I slammed on his door and waited for him to open it.

"Ash please. You'll just make it worse," Roman said. 

"Look. I'm tired of people asking me if we're getting back together. Why would I be with him after what he did?"

I slammed on his door again.

"Maybe he doesn't want to talk to you," Roman said.

"Fuck that!"