Little Badass

Chapter 30- Have Fun

Song: watch
Artist: Billie Eilish

Ash's POV:

It's already 7:00. I'm thinking about whether I should go or not. I mean, we haven't had a real conversation since I left. The only time I said anything to him was when we argued in the hallway. And Tyler cut that argument short.

I've been starring at my ceiling for a good thirty minutes. If I go then what am I going to say? He should be the one talking! He's the one that invited you! That's true. I got up and looked at the mirror. I had the same outfit on as earlier. It looked cold outside but I don't feel like changing.

I put on some chapstick and grabbed my phone. I looked at the time and it was already 7:25. Damn time goes by fast. I thought about it some more and finally gave in. I'll just make him wait a while to make it seem like I'm not going to show up and then show up.

After a good ten minutes I got up and walked to my door. 7:35. I slowly walked down the hallway and made my way up the stairs. I walked into the top hallway and walked to the secret staircase. Once I got there I stopped.

I starred at it for a while until a stench hit my nose. My blood began to boil. Artificial Strawberry. I felt my nails sink into the palm of my hand. I took a few steps back and took in a deep breath. I don't want to breath in that smell.

I didn't know what to do. Should I leave? Should I go up? He's such a dick! Why would he invite me up with him and that skank?! I bet he wanted me to be surprised and catch them kissing. Uhhhhhh! What an asshole!

"Ash?"

I turned my head and looked at the blue eyed boy. His pale skin and tatted arms. A frown formed on his face.

"What's wrong?" He asked.

"Your friend invited me.....you know what?! It doesn't matter. Do you want to go to the green house with me?" I asked him.

"Ummm....okay. I mean I was going there anyways," he smiled.

"Great," I smiled.

We made our way to the greenhouse. I took my phone out and scrolled to Grayson's name. 🖕🏻The Dick across the hall🖕🏻. I pressed on it and began to type.

Have fun with your slut 😘

I hit send and smiled. I turned off my phone and continued my conversation with Roman. We talked about art and also about what happened earlier. We also talked about what I did at lunch.

******

Once we got to the greenhouse we sat down on the bench swing. We talked about the things he's been up to since I left. He asked about my time back home. I told him some of it. I had to lie about most of it. I'm not that close to Roman as I am with Gabriel. So can't just go around telling everyone what actually happened back home.

"So what do you think he wanted to talk about?" He asked.

"He probably wanted to apologize again."

"Why haven't you forgave him? I mean, whatever he said was probably wrong but at the end he feels bad for what he said. Yeah, his mom told him something for him to feel bad. I don't know what she said but it must've been bad for him to feel bad."

"But that's the thing. I don't want him to feel bad for me. He feels bad because he knows the truth. Now he sees me as a broken girl who he feels he has to apologize to. And I don't want that," I frowned.

"Then why not tell him that he doesn't have to apologize?"

"Just because I don't want him to apologize doesn't mean I'm not mad at him for what he said. What he said effected me. It hurt me. And the fact that he knows that it hurt me makes me feel weak."