Alanis-CTFxC Fanfiction

Chapter 21

I'm starting exercises today to help my hand and body get back to normal. Like tossing a ball, playing a guitar, etc. I still can't get these horrible thoughts out of my head. It bothers me too much. I just want it all to disappear. My family thinks I'm over it. I'm not. I will never be. Her words are engraved into my brain. I can't get them off my mind. I remind my self everyday to fake a smile for my family and the veiwers. Mostly our veiwers though. I have to make sure to smile in front of them. Some of them are super smart and notice those type of things. I'm a very positive person, just like my dad. It's just certain words from certain people seriously kill. Everyone is in the hall because they think I'm sleeping. But little do they know I'm torturing myself with my own thoughts. Yup. I'm now crying again. I think someone is about to enter the room. I wipe my tears quickly. Someone opens the door.